Entry 55: 'Ship is drowing..

I've pretty much stayed in my own world with NOTHING but home, game and Boney.

I realised how much I've drifted away from my girls and cliques..

Friendships? It just gotta need some constant maintenance and checking..

But I just ain't that sorta who will always ask..

"hey how have you been?"

^^

So, prolly I'll start losing many of my precious GIRL friends..

Do I have close guy friends?

hmmm.. I'm wondering how many DIRECT guy friends do I have..

Direct as in not known through other friends ya!

Ok, Boys part.. not important.

I used to have a nice 12乐坊clique during secondary school years..

Yong mei

Alicia Goh

Yu ping

Sin ting

Ci xian

Yi lin

Cheryl

Xiao han

Jie ying

Me

.

.

I don't really remember who else are included

Sorry >_<

Anyways, I'm distant to them now..

Didn't much contact them either.

I used to hangout quite a bit with Lina.

But unfortunately, that gap can never be covered back with any cement or what-so-ever.

No emo-ing ^^

I'm passed with that guilt and disappointment.

Then, I have another smaller clique in the ones mentioned above..

But guess I'm no longer a part of them..

They are still as one of course. But not me =)

I hope I'll spend a lil more time with my Beetches..

But will they have the time to spare me too? xD

Chris DIDI told me that he will always be here for his sis..

I appreciate that a lot.. Thanks ^^

Some things just change throughout the year..

Or even months or weeks..

Fluctuating..

Gees..

I hope I'm not spreading any emo gas (x

I won't say I don't need friends..

But time to time, I just realise..

I'm my only pillar of support..

And whoever might be much of a help to me will be my family.

Relationship wise, Boney andI do talk so things are still alright so far.

I just wish everything will be fine for me.

Really, I don't need the best of the world...