Entry 245: Train of Thoughts

I don't know why

Those images that I come across

Stay

I don't know why

Those reflections I did

Haunt

I don't know why

Those alerts about time

Jolt

I don't know was it because I've had enough of losses

I began to reflect too much

Fear too much

Afraid that time is never enough for me to tell everyone I love them

I've watched 2012

I've watched Autism: The Musical

I've watched others read others

Heard others see others

I feel so much

So much that I can't bear

Just because we know one would only cherish after losing

We thought we could really appreciate the presence of everyone and everything around us

But look around you

How many of you fall into temptations again and again?

How many of you begged for forgiveness for major mistakes again and again?

Just look at yourself..

This train of thoughts keep running in my mind

I can't stop them

I can't stop my fears

Even if the end of time is really here

I won't deny I haven't had enough

I just wish.. ...

Entry 244: Why Am I Who I Am?

For some instances, I browsed through those pretty bloggers and asked myself or commented to my Monkiee after seeing their photos..

"Ouhh.. I like her! She is so sexy and pretty! If only I could be like her.."

It isn't weird or uncommon to think so..

Partly cos appearance is the first thing people see from you.

Notice I don't mention see "IN" you ^^

Anyway, someone told me that he is a frequent reader of my blog via MSN and that kinda makes me smi(:le
How often would I get loyal readers since I'm not some super hot bloggers?

I'm not those pretty faces or great debater that some people might like (or not)
Examples: XiaXue, XueSha, Celestina, Miyake, Naomi, etc..
Some of them have so much to share and some of those I visit, honestly, I'm just interested with their photos..
Meaning?
I don't really read >.<

Anyways, I've just finished my EC individual assignment and I'm happy ^^
Yesterday had group project with two others til night.

Honestly, late nights in school irritates me
So next time, if I ever give you attitudes after a LONG LONG day in school, pardon me >.<

I cried on my way thinking how little time I feel whenever assignments take my precious time away.
Don't tell me bout time management. BullShyts happen.

I don't have any dollars to spend now.
And I can't work cos I don't have enough time for myself as school is engulfing it all.
Even if I do, I'd probably give myself a good excuse to stop school cos I hate it now.
(oops)

Alrights, I'm stopping here..
Hari Raya Haji to all Malays!
And HAPPY PUBLIC HOLIDAYS to the rest! =DD

Entry 243: ITA again..

To think of it,  ITA2 isn't that bad..

ok, at least compared to ITA1
..

Snapped with WebCam cos I'm simply too bored..

I MISS MY FRINGE!!!!!! hurhu..

I'm kinda hungry now..

Didn't ask for allowance from Mom

So I'm on my own.. Wonder how I could still survive without working?

I dont know too..

I'm superwoman

But I wish I could be those ordinary girls you see on the streets carrying handful of shopping bags

='(

I'm sick of those clothes I see in my wardrobe..

Perhaps I can try sewing cute and fanciful towels together and wear them out.

I'd probably be the trend "starter"!! Muahahahha

yeah yeah dream on girl.. -.-"

Bye peeps!

Entry 242: Photoshop in Class

Having ITA lesson now.

Photoshop is familiar so not really concentrating much

This is what our teacher wants us to do..

Randomly searched for a photo..

BEFORE

AFTER

I just realised I made her arms too "deformed" xD

LOL..

Doing proj later..

Hopefully could end early so I could go find Baby =D

Entry 241: You were my oxygen in school..

I thought efforts could bring us back

I thought if we try harder things would be like previous

But this distance I feel

This gap that can never seem to be filled

It was tears whenever I thought of it

But today when I recalled about us

I smiled

If there is the slightest regret

It would be not telling you how much I missed you

But I've never regret afterall

Cos I know I've loved you dearly as a friend

Deep in my heart I did

Perhaps I'm moving on

Perhaps it was those people who cheered my day

That made me feel so

Whatever it is, I guess

They are just not the same but not the worst

We will now be a few-liner friends

And to be honest

I could no longer find anyone

Who is close to how I could regard you as someone

To confide my deepest thoughts to in school

You were my oxygen

You were my safest shelter

But now I'm on my own emotionally...

感觉一丝新生命的开始

虽然不陌生但还是好怀念从前

Entry 240: Canelé.. Perfect Gifts..

Cakes..

Irish Cream/Mocha/Rose/etc

pardon me cos I don't remember..

oh oh.. the one in the middle (orange top) is limited to this season only..

Rum Raisin (:

They come with nice gift boxes!!

Perfect for presents!! Simply love their carriers and boxes.. =D

PATRONISE THEM!! (^^,)v

Entry 239: Side side side ladder~..

The ladder in between isn't very obvious though >.<

Anyways, I'm in school now..
A rainy morning..
A chilly classroom..
A growling stomach..
A not-into-school mood..

Tada!
Baby is going to work today at 3pm.
And surely he is not going to end early like 7 or 8
Hopefully Mich GF would reply that she is free so that 女人 and I can go over to see her and Velle..

I feel like eating fruits..
Many many fruits..
I feel like eating sashimi..
The yellow tail, tuna, swordfish and salmon..
ohhohh..
I'm drooling soon =((

I have a packet of potato chips in my bag
But I think I might be saving it til Lunch.
So what can I do now?
Pay attention !!!!!

ok. Bye..

Entry 238: Canele Cakes!

Ever heard of Les Amis Group?

FYI: It is one of the most influential and well-respected restaurant groups in Singapore.

Recommending you the Canelé..

Meals like pastas, and beefs

Pastries, cakes, and bakery products

Chocolates, macaroons, and ice creams

The variety of sweet crepes simply makes me drool~~~~

3 of the few tantalizing cakes that I eyed on..

BlackForest

Chocolate genoise with kirsch, layered with 66% dark chocolate mousse, chocolate crumble, kirsch chantilly and dark cherry.

Slice : $8.00

500g : $41.00

1 kg : $85.00

Raspberry Cheescake

Chocolate fudge cake, velvety smooth vanilla cheesecake galzed with raspberry jelly and rosemary-infused creme chantilly.

Slice : $7.50

500g : $35.00

1 kg : $70.00

Triple Chocolate Cheesecake

Walnut chocolate fudge cake, chocolate chip cheese cake and dark chocolate chantily

Slice : $8.00

500 gm : $37.50

1 kg : $78.00

I'm intending to get one of those for my 19th birthday on 6th Jan 2010, Wednesday.

Might be considering either the 1st or 3rd though.

I'm not hinting anyone to get it for me.. Instead, I wanna get one myself.

This is going to be the first birthday that I really buy a cake that I want!!

Cool eh~~!

=D

Of course, I won't be getting a whole kilo of cake. Probably just getting the 500gm one ^^

Anyone wanna share my cake? xD

Entry 237: Missing Sm(:les

脸上少了几分笑容

可悲得连身边的人都没注意到。。

Entry 236: D-Babe Interview on IAH e-zine

Remember my post on Dragonica's D-Babe competition??

Yes, I topped the competition and later received an email with some questions by the amiable editor of IAHGames, Johnny Tay.

I am less active in gaming at the moment due to my tight school schedules.

I WILL BE BACK FOR MORE!!

err.. during holidays I suppose? xD

If you're interested to read my answers or the questions, or both

(ok, some people are just there to criticise)

feel free to follow the link below!

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http://www.iahgames.com/News/NewsArticle.aspx?id=4

SUPPORT IAHGAMES!!! =D

Entry 235: When will it ever end..

When was the beginning

When will it end

Life is like this

Love is no better

When will it be the commencement of the next

When will I be feeling someone near

When will I be feeling needed

When time has changed everything

or somehow in one way or another

I wish he could be there when I need him

I wish he could answer to my cries

I wish he could respond to my silence

I wish he could sense my loneliness and fear

I'm used to it

I'm no longer that afraid

Perhaps they my heart no longer hold

Perhaps they my life has distant

My only concern of you

When would you hear my shout out to you
Or maybe selectively you choose to hear "it"

When "it" takes away too much of your time, attention and life..

What's left for me?

You never notice your existence in my life is fading..

I love you..

But I yearn most for someone who really cares to be here for me

Someone who really wanna protect and take care of me

Someone who senses my weakness and tries to brave all those fears for me

Sadly, you are never like this

If requests are too demanding

I'd rather let it be and leave

For the least I know efforts are just nothing but plain words

You said you did them

But what you have done

Nothing comparable to what is longed for

p.s: Boy, I can't lie that it's tears when I think about you and me..

Entry 234: Langkawi Trip

See that standing silver thingy there?

Brought this two to weigh!

and Mom's handbag plus my cam xD

Mom's and Dad's is 5.55kg

Ours is 7.10kg

Mom's handbag is 2.85kg

And cammie is 0.25kg (with pouch)

Sis: Sexy ear

Mom said she look very pretty..

And sis... -.-"

Sianzzzzzzzzzzz

Waiting for the plane to arrive

The only thing that reminds me of Baby..

I MISS HIM SO DARN MUCH!

ON THE PLANE!

Candy Floss clouds

Budget air..

Spot that 千金大小姐？

On the bus..

Off for lunch~

Then to Holiday Villa Hotel

Looks more like chalet though =.=

Waiting for the room keys

TO THE ROOM!

Changed out something casual for their bonding games

Oh.. did I mention we went together with Dad's company staffs and workers?

>.<

Workers from Myanmmar, Bangladesh, China blah

YES! Banglas!

But hey!! They are really humorous bunch of people..

Dad's squarting..

He swapped to be the goalkeeper for Captain's Ball and managed to catch and crack that zero score of his team~!

dinner on our own..

The yang chou mee is nice~!

Dad checking out the balcony..

Relax eh~~

2nd day..

CEREALS!!

Sis toasting bread

Dad grumbled alot at their supposed to be HALF but HARD boil egg xD

THIS IS CLASSIC MAN!!

Ok.. I promise sis to censor away her face BUT I DIDN'T!!!

LMAO!!! She might kill me.. HAHHA

Nice and relaxing

wanna take one swee swee pic but her eyes ah..

tsk tsk..

spoiler.. -.-

YES!! GEK SAI-ING!

The big big chess

SEE SIS's DEFORMED ARM

SKINNY LIKE SIMI SIAL

Setting off for ISLAND HOPPING

Before the boats are ready..

Posed with the gum (pls ignore that caucasian who looks kinda freaky)

Dad SNATCHED my gum!

SETTING OFF LO!!!

Pregnant Lady island..

It is damn obvious when you view it there..

MONYETS everywhere!

The baby looks like dardar xP

muahahhahahhahaha

Dad and his outstanding swimming trunks!

OUTSTANDING!!!!

Saw his life vest?

He can't swim but with the vest.. he dived like no people's business man!!

Every workers of theirs were like happily jumping and somersauting and diving!

Then the baby "pool"

The whole place is like a lake.. BUT REALLY BIG..

And fyi.. this is freshwater..

Dad's sexy pose

西瓜甜不甜？！

Dad and sis answered..

Singa island..

Doesn't really look very distinctive

Eagles~~~~~~~

Then ... to the clear beautiful beach..

Monyets again >.<

Told sis that they really look like human in terms of their actions and sis said when they DONT look like humans?!

Small girl

This is really hilarious..

HUMAN WATER STACKO!!

The way they act the way they talk..

OMG!

Prepare for tummy ache man.. LOL

 Sandy feet

 Sis showed off that she can take all of us..

 AND!!

Dad tried to PROVE that he can too!!

AND YES!! HE DID IT!!!!!

 SIS AH!

SPOILER LEH!

CAN SHOW YOUR TEETH OR NOT!!!!!

 Back to the jetty..

Tables set up with plates plates and plates..

Found all ours..

There was one girl who look like me with shades! And they bought that not knowing that I have bought mine

x))

 PADDLE POP

 IGNORE THAT HOLE IN MY FRINGE PLS

 CAMMIE is sick..

She became purpleish and I don't know why..

So sudden..

This look like.. Man island..

The head on the right..

Then the chest to stomach to a lil kuku pop out xD

and lastly the small arch .. the feet

 Last dinner from the company for the 2nd day..

 3rd day was BACK TO SG day!

Cammie is officially sick so no photos for coming back ..

=(

NOTHING TO SHOP THERE!!

So.. if you're just for relaxation and some kampong life.. for clear beaches and soft sand..

This is a nice place to go..

If you're looking forward for cheap shopping..

BANG THE WALL!

There is seriously NOTHING..

and they are not cheap -.-

Been feeling a lil nauseous, dizzy after looking at something too long and the uneasy feeling of wanting to burp but after burping the gas is still there kinda thingy.. after arriving back home..

I'm not sure if I'm really sick or what .. shall see how tomorrow..

Anyways!!!

I POO-ED EVERYDAY FOR THE 3DAYS!

and even today!

I don't usually poo EVERY SINGLE day..

maybe cos I really had all 3 meals?

LOL!

Input is still more than output so..

haha..