Entry 235: When will it ever end..

When was the beginning

When will it end

Life is like this

Love is no better

When will it be the commencement of the next

When will I be feeling someone near

When will I be feeling needed

When time has changed everything

or somehow in one way or another

I wish he could be there when I need him

I wish he could answer to my cries

I wish he could respond to my silence

I wish he could sense my loneliness and fear

I'm used to it

I'm no longer that afraid

Perhaps they my heart no longer hold

Perhaps they my life has distant

My only concern of you

When would you hear my shout out to you
Or maybe selectively you choose to hear "it"

When "it" takes away too much of your time, attention and life..

What's left for me?

You never notice your existence in my life is fading..

I love you..

But I yearn most for someone who really cares to be here for me

Someone who really wanna protect and take care of me

Someone who senses my weakness and tries to brave all those fears for me

Sadly, you are never like this

If requests are too demanding

I'd rather let it be and leave

For the least I know efforts are just nothing but plain words

You said you did them

But what you have done

Nothing comparable to what is longed for

p.s: Boy, I can't lie that it's tears when I think about you and me..