Entry 169: The Same Old Thing Never Change..

I don't need your time if you can't dedicate it willingly to me.


It has been running through my mind..

Entry 168: Silence is the best acknowledgement for us

I missed u much

But whenever I look at your name in my phonebook
Whenever I go through the 1 to 2 words or liner messages you sent

I thought silence would be the best

I wonder if you ever knew..

I'm thinking of you when you are so into your games..

I accepted in silence.. And shall it be my reply to your too..

Entry 167: The AKs @ Bukit Batok..

A brisk of what we did on a Wednesday at Bukit Batok..

Lunch at Mac - treat by Shaan. Very nice "Sister" xD

Dinner shared with Jasmine the AK ACT-SHY!

Played at a playground and arcade (:

Playing with Shaan's biggie shades

I'm the AK Nanny!

AK Mommy

AK Act-Shy!

We're gonna call ourselves the AKs = Anywhere Kids

Reason being we are all scattered at all areas..

Where we normally hangout, where we reside and where we study or work..

=D

We can sit and chat and take photo and eat at ANYWHERE too!

Neat eh.


Lastly.. this is a photo of Lovelle when I ask her to smile!

Such a forceful and fake smile.. LOL!

Entry 166: 让我照顾你。。

如果可以，我希望是你生命里唯一疼兮的女孩。。

好好地照顾我，轻声细语地对我说：

“这辈子只爱你一个”

Entry 165: Tied down..

With assignments' due dates drawing so close to one another..

And the need to rush reports out..

I'm really tied down with school stuff.

Will have to expect more of my weekends burnt and early dismissal from school wishful.

Just yesterday, stayed in sch til night time for group project which will be continued later again..

Fortunately, his dad was willing to drive to my sch to fetch me up for dinner together with them.
I'm not very positive about what time I will leave school later and whether they will pick me up again

>.<

hais~~~

Nvm.

Monday's classes end at 6pm and I have to stay back for a group report for MAYC module.

Still have DLE, FM and ITBD..

PLUS term paper. GOsh.. I wish I could just go to work sometimes xD

Watched HARRY POTTER on a Friday.

Seriously, if you haven't watch it, don't bother to.

Really disappointed.

I don't see the climax? And what an ending that is.

OK. shall go prepare for project .. =(

Sometimes, the feeling deep down is so strong

I can't breathe..

Entry 164: Su was pregnant.

It was really a shock when no one knows she is pregnant.

Received a forwarded text from Ruth by Miss Su's husband saying that she had a miscarriage and has to cancel the make-up lesson today.

I hope she would be fine =(

Entry 163: Birthday Wish..

I know it is kinda early?

hahas..

I think I would be VERY happy if friends are willing to present me with a cake held by a MASCOT!! Any cute character.. They just look adorable in the BIG head costume and soft soft body..

xD

But sadly, I don't have much guy friends..

Girls wouldn't really wanna do this I bet? x)

I told Boney about it.. But I doubt he will fulfill it >.+

OK! that's it. hahas

Just feel like blogging this.. HAVE A NICE DAY SEXIES!

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Entry 162: Just...

Before I go to sleep, I just wanna say...

Though times may seem too hard to brave through

Though reality may seem too heavy to handle

Though life may seem too difficult to trudge on

..

Don't forget the people around you

Those who urge you on

Don't leave them

So just keep on fighting

..

Life is harder to live than death is to cease..

..

Don't stop Sm(:ling~

Entry 161: Unintentional Climb.

Took my wallet and a plastic bag of some stuff that I needa bring back to Boney's house and off I left my home..

On the way down the 6x2 flight of stairs..

I was thinking if I should take the 10-15mins walk back or board a bus..

As I reached the ground floor.. I thought..

Did I miss out my bag?!

Somehow, I was very convinced and sure that I brought my bag out and left it at home..

Yes, I climbed the flight of stairs back to my house..

Then the moment I stepped into the house..

I looked around and shortly, I was ENLIGHTENED.

I was at Boney's house before meeting my mum at Lot One..

So that would mean NO bag..

._________.

What an unintentional climb I had..

What an exercise for me..

I have been eating a lot..

Finishing up the plate of rice with the usual servings that an outdoor stall would give..

I have been shitting too..

I like the fact that I POO! xD

Lmao.

But I don't think my outputs tally with my input eh!

=X

oh well.. going to eat dinner soon though I'm still quite full..

^.*

I'm going to grow fatter soon >.<

Anyways, will be going Lor Lew Lian again after dinner..

A day passing that fast I can't stop to relax~~

Entry 160: Skipped? Not again xD

As my title suggests.. I skipped something again..

Obviously..

School.

Really intended to attend lectures today but irritatedly..

Boney played his game til around 6.30am when I just woke up and wanted to go bathe.

Then I have to let him go first cos his dad is driving him to CMPB around 6.45am.

And shortly after his bath, his sis would need to use..

By the time I could bathe and prepare myself..

I will be late.

No point of going if I'll be late.

I don't like it so I skipped.

Laze to go school for just one lecture..

I know it is examinable..

I pardon myself and I promise I will make myself get the two lectures' notes from hardworking classmates ^.*

Met up with MichGF in the train and headed to Yishun.

We ate some finger food!

Sidetrack:

Yesterday, I felt that I ate A LOT!

But people say they are in small amount..?

I had..

1. Bowl of Cereal

2. Two packets of wang wang

3. Cut fruit of Papaya

4. Egg Tart

5. Soon Kueh

6. Carrot Cake

7. Cut fruit of Watermelon

8. A mouth of Ice Kachang

9. A piece of Nugget

10. A mouth of Waffle with Ice Cream

11. Three Sushi

12. Bowl of Mee Sua

Everything finished without any bits left!

And the interval in between those munchies were kinda short.. xD

Okok.. BACK.

Dearie and Shaan arrived around 1plus I guess? (didn't check time)

Girlfriend and Jasmine(correction: She is not girlfriend's godsis) met us at Jap Foodcourt around 3plus too separately..

I don't recall remember what time Dearie's BF, Boon Siang reached.. But it is in between her and Girlfriend..

Had lunch and Shaan left slightly after 4pm.

We walked around the mall aimlessly.

It was really "shopless"

And to add on.. I'm left with a petty amount of ten bucks to last me for the rest of the month!

='(
Nvm.

Slacked a lil while more and all headed to the MRT.

MichGF is the first to alight..

Followed by Jas, then Dearie, then ME!!

Last is Girlfriend xD

I'm back home now.. obviously -.-

watching FLINTSTONE on Cartoon Network at the same time =D

Dinner soon..

Meaning FOOD again..

>.<

I'm really having lotsa "INPUTS" lately!!

Should be consoling cos I will try to manage my weight so I don't get OVERWEIGHT..

And and..

SKINNY people are PROVEN to have SHORTER lifespan than CHUBBIER people xDDD

I LOVE MY FATS~!

muahahhahahhahaha

Entry 159: Would You Know If I Fake A Smile..

We quarrelled for a short while yesterday night..

And as usual.. cause is your game.

I apologised for my impatient and irritated tone when you asked me to help you click that F1 in the game while I was reading the newspaper.

And when I asked if you would like to apologise too..

You said you did.

I didn't hear it.. I just wanted to..

That hard?

I really don't like it at all.

I try to comply myself to accept and not change

Cos I know NOT change can be a powerful thing.

But I wish.. You could empathise my stand..

I know my temper has been getting worse.

I know people around us notice it too.

But no one knows what has gotten to me to be who I am now.

They will never understand cos they don't stand in the same situation, in the same position..

They don't see and feel things as clear as me.

They don't. They really don't.

I try to coax myself to sleep without bothering you

After so long, I hate how much I still can't go to bed without you..

It is so hard for me even if I go back home..

Everyone can say their solution.. but none works.. do you know?

The feeling of the heart is beyond human control.

You came to me after a while apologising softly into my ears..

I accepted and I admitted my wrong.

But I thought for a moment or two..

The heart that has shed much tears for it aches too deep..

Does it have a chance to fully recover after medication that was delayed?

I typed on the phone that you hurt me and I don't like it.

And all you would is just apologise and hug..

If you really realise.. Please..

Treat me like a girlfriend to be doted on.

I might not be your future.. and all I ask for is that bit more of care..

I abhor the fact that game seems more of a priority to you.

Pull me back on track, will you?

我不想看着爱情冻结却什么都不做。

Entry 158: Pre-Birthday Celebration for..

Boney's Mom.. + his Dad's colleague cum fishing kaki's (Darren) wife.. + another friend of theirs, Uncle Tony..

Went to Sembawang CC for dinner..

Total of 7 course + 1 dessert..

Not bad.. ^^

Camwhored quite a bit.. but ain't gonna upload all.. xD

Boney just had his long wanted gift~~YOSHI

FROM ME~!

Uncle Darren's family..

Coincidentally, Kenneth, their son..

is studying in the same school as Tracy.. (:

Uncle Tony and his wife..


Boney's Mom and Dad..

Boney's sis, Isabell, and boyfriend aka rice bucket, Justin..

Kept complaining that he hasn't take photo with me.. x)

Had nightmares again ..

No ghost.. No white shadow.. No horror.. No deaths..

Had dreams of him leaving me lately ..

They feel real in dreams.. But they don't give me those feelings that they are gonna happen..

Deja Vu?

I'll have a super strong feeling after I wake up if I know the dream is gonna happen..

And I really don't like that =((

Anyways, those bad dreams I have might make me feel horrible for a day or two..

Should that explain my insecurity?

Is it that my unconscious mind comes alive only during my deep sleep

reminding me how love wouldn't last

It might sound ridiculous..

But perhaps..

this is the only reason I can explain to myself why they creep to me at night when I didn't think of them during the day..

Dreams are beyond my control and I just gotta take them easy..

If I could make a wish now..

I wish to sleep without bad dreams~

Entry 157: Tuesday Lunch @ Yishun Japanese Foodcourt

Went to Yishun to wait for Tracy GF to dismiss..

I was really bored ~~

GIRLFRIENDS~

Chanced upon Vin ..

Met up with Benjamin DIDI first while waiting for GF cos they're in same sch..

First time with Hayati, GF's classmate (:

Nai Ma, Lover, Nai Ma..



DEARie~

On timer again!

Char Siew Ramen..

YUMMY!!!!!!!!

sluuup sluuup~~

Lover really had the patience to eat the prawns with shells on..

Lover: Hey.. what you want to do with the tissue?

Nai Ma: refuse to answer..

Nai Ma don't know what to pose..

Nai Ma: Aiyah! Sua! Pose same as them la.

I think Lover is doing the old style of lip stick eh?

If you don't get what I mean, figure out yourself..
xD

Do you notice it is such a COMMON thing to have our HANDS in the pic if we don't get to show our face?

LOL!!

Lover looks like she is praying..

Dearie, Me and GF are obviously daydreaming something really sweet and nice..

Nai Ma should be wondering boringly what is so nice to see
LMAO!!!!! =DD

GF NEVER fails to show her TISSUE BOAT in almost EVERY photos =_="

hahas

Lover: grins.. Tracy wants you to sniff her boat

Dearie: sad.. I don't want to smell =(

Nai Ma looks pretty cautious in handling the tissue boat..

Perhaps she finds it dirty xD

Nai Ma: *I'm forced to pose with the boat!*

I Love Them..

Genuinely from the bottom of my heart!!!

Please pardon my cacat faces!!! xD

Try'na act pregnant! LOL

Auntie SIAM-ing our cam!!

Too bad.. MISSION FAILED.

Now.. the lil boy wants to join in!

The always-so-kiddy-look Dearie!!

hees

Wayne is sobbing..

Pearl doesn't know what to do..

Tracy tries to fool around with her boat AGAIN -___-"

Ouhh~~

Dearie and I exclaimed together..:

POOR MOUSE!!

=D

Nai Ma not tall enough =X

I think we're not trying to promote TOILET?!

YES! Choosing finger food AFTER our lunch!!

Look at us.. You can't deny we live to eat..

and eat to live.

THAT IS ESSENTIAL IN LIFE!!

The Jap foodcourt..

Slacking outside Mac.

This looks like shit..

ALL THANKS TO NAI MA!

LOL

Nai Ma was very into taking phone's image that day..

GuesS: Where was this taken at? ;)

TRACY IS THE PEEPING JANE!

In the lift..

I WAS FORCED TO DRINK THE SOUP

Nai ma said Dearie and GF finished most of their soup and so...

Dearie looks so kiddy cute dreamer..

Fantasizing of?? ...

(^(oo)^)v

And Dearie wanted to be in the phone image too!~

Original~

TOTALLY forgotten about AW Test that day..

Luckily Fathiah syg reminded me via text..

She even dreamt the night before that I did not turn up for test cos she forgotten to remind me!

hahas.. Premonition?

On my way to school~~

Left around 3.15pm.

The oldest look I think I can get.. hahas

Syg and I !!

Syg snapped this (:

I pray for more to come..

They showed me how life could be beautiful

even when the world seems crashing down