Entry 118: I Feel Your Absence While Asleep..

It was really horrible.

I had a nightmare when you were out of the room when you supposedly should be here.

This was definitely NOT the first time I sense your absence in nightmares..

I was afraid.

I went out of the room to look for you.

And you were with your friend at the other room.

I hugged and burst into tears upon seeing you.

And I was glad, you knew what roughly happened.

Boy, of all the things in the world, I could never leave without you.

It was never this strong til I met you..

This is when I really call..

I NEED You..

P.s: You're my last and only.. I Love You.

Entry 117: Dragonball Evolution (2009)

Watched this on my com.

Pretty exciting. But the ending was lil too fast I think.

xD

Don't wish it to be draggy either la. hahas

Anyway, went Changi and Beach road with Boney, his dad, and his fishingkaki, Amir.

FISHING TRIP TOMORROW!!

=DD

Bye peeps!

Replies:

Thanks Dearie (:

BOYFRIEND, we'll meet someday. LOL.

Entry 116: It's Saturday!

Wanted to laze on the bed but a loud sound forced me to go out of the room to check it out..

Afraid that his grandma would be injured or what.

Phew~~ Luckily it was the wind which blown so hard that the pot of decorative plant toppled.

Good thing it didn't hurt his grandma.

First time I ever went out to check out on his grandma was when I heard glass shatters

Helped her wash the whole kitchen so that no small glass fragments would be left behind.

This time, after supporting the plant and placing it back properly,

I was wide awake already.

Mopped the dirty part of the floor where there is doggie poo mark..

On the com, and now.. I'm here blogging (:

Today is his sis's birthday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEMBER!!

=D

I'm thinking of what to do now.

Don't feel like thinking for the lesson plan for next assignment.

Can't even think of what to do with the children next wednesday.

Any ideas people!!

Art with leaves.. for age 5.

Not too simple.. but not too difficult.

In the time frame of 30minutes.

urgh.

My juices were squeezed til the last bit for the first two lessons ..

=(

Lols.

Entry 115: Determinants & Motivators?

This WAS me BEFORE my idiotic haircut.

I TOTALLY regretted believing auntie in that particular salon at BB.

='(

I fall in love with Wayne in this pic xD

LOL!!!

Anyway, am thinking about jogging too after chatting with XT ytd.

First BIG BIG consideration: breast.

That's a super obvious thing as tetek makes upof mostly FATS.

=)

If I forgo that, which I think I could..

I would need some motivators.

I need someone to jog with me.

Not guys of course. uncomfortable >.<

hahas

My stamina isn't good and my heart isn't beating the way I wanted it to..

My legs aren't listening to my commands and I would feel like giving up very soon..

What's more..

I want to jog before dawn breaks.. so it is about 5plus in the morning.

I would prolly still be lazing on the bed.

Well, I don't think I could go on diet with exercise.

FOOD IS IMPORTANT!

And I have been eating alot lately =X

Yummy food is to be appreciated people!!!

The ULTIMATE is hopefully to shed some fats..

But now, I just wish to tone up my body.

My excess fats are 'sagging' already..

NO~! St. Bernard is a DOG! NOT my fats!!

-____-"

And periods irritate me so much as pimples just pop pop pop pop pop~!

They are not sweet like lollipops nor yummy like popcorns.. and I seriously don't crave for it

argh.

Exercise is said to be good for face too?

Like indirect effect kinda thing.. ^^

Now.. the question is..

How is WAYNE going to jog ALONE and be MOTIVATED to jog FREQUENTLY?

x.x

I would prefer sleep and stay home? heh.

lazy bum.. yes it is ME!

Entry 114: E-Learning Week..

I've spent my E-Learning week rather busily yet happily too!


Went to Chinatown with Big "Fish" and my mum, Second "Fish" aka "crocodile"
If you're a chinese, try reading it in chinese, you should roughly get what I mean with the fishes and crocodile x)
*hint* change the pronounciation of "yu" to "yi" (:



Bought two tank tops at $10.
I doubt the quality? It is TOO stretchable I think >.<>

The ice above created a BRIDGE!!! cool yo! xD

Tuesday was rather busy.I can't recall what I did that day. My mind is blank.

But well, I know I spent the night doing my lesson plan's sample artwork..







Children's final masterpiece (:

Ate KOKO KRUNCH for breakfast at 6am.

Went to school to meet Fathiah Syg. [Short for Sayang]

Was supposed to meet at ten but I was slightly more than half an hour late xP

Found the required texts in less than ten minutes and Syg suggested that we go Island Creamery!!

I was eating the bacon bread that his mom made for me at that time.. around 11plus ..

I finished the bacons but not the bread!! =P

Save some spaces cos my stummy is gonna bloat soon >.<

Finally, my BLACKFOREST and Syg's STRAWBERRY SORBET..

Plus, we shared MUD PIE!

Yummmy~~

thin layer of caramel, then choc chip.. then reverso (chocolate)

covered with orea biscuits~~~

Woolala~~~

Decided to snap a photo and paste it here!

Spot us? haha =D

Went to Town to meet XT and I reached about 1pm I think??

She wanted to treat me something nice and supposedly more expensive than normal foodcourt's food..

But well, I was really quite full.

So I only bought total two Tori Q's chicken ball and pork asparagus

While walking to Fareast..

We saw...!!!

I didn't really take a close up one cos one of the crew was looking at me.

Don't seem friendly! =X



Went to search for Left & Right shoe shop.. but to no avail..

COS IT IS AT CENTREPOINT!

Sat down at Gelare for Salad and cheesecake..

I know this doesn't seem appealing.. but it is quite nice (:

A pic before heading to Cineleisure for Arcade session!! Played two rounds of BBall..

Really moved my arms man! they were shaky and "sour" after playing each time..

Plus, given my height and of the machine's..

I have to tip toes on both legs..

My leg muscles ache and EVEN MY PANTAT FEELS THE STRETCH! =X

LOL.


Went to pool for a $15 session. LOL.

With XT, Boney and his colleague..

Hid into this thing when I saw it at the corner beside our table..

Wonder what it is .. hahas

Snowman is to help me censor the unglam part la huh. ^.*

Ok.. that's all folks. I'm really tired. GOODNIGHT!

Entry 113: Animated Movie: Alien vs Monster

Hilarious and cute..

Kinda sad in the beginning though.

hahas

Done watching 2 out of 7 movies transferred by my korkor.

Uninvited was said to have an expected ending which is not very nice..

But still.. watched halfway with Fathiah during break last thursday, so gonna wait til I meet her again in sch on the 1st of June (:

This week is E-learning week!!

But oh well.. have a grammar and financial manangement test on Tuesday.

And assignments to start on as due date is on the following week..

Argh.

Can't it be a relaxed one?

Gosh.

Entry 112: Movie: DEPARTURE (2008)

Catch Trailer or Synopsis of this movie at

http://www.departures-themovie.com/about.html

There is an error in the english subs for the movie.

If you watch the chinese one it'll be fine.

Just a lil error at the time frame..

"2 months instead of 2 weeks"

Extracts:

使已经冰冷的遗体复生

授于其永恒之美

那是准确 冷静的 一种至高无上的爱

在最后的时候送别故人

静谧的 那一举一动都是如此的优美

死 也许是一扇门

死 并不意味着结束

穿过那里 走向下一站

简直就像是 一扇门

I felt really terrible when people in the scenes look down on his job as an "encoffinator".

These job takers who take their pride in it..

Brought the decease back to "life"

And who are those who cry a river for him/her who has passed away?

We always come across the phrase "Cherish before you lose it"

But we never do.

The enlightenment you'll get only when death faces you - be it yours or someone close..

Do we have the time to let tomorrow arrive while we casually thought everything's gonna be fine the next day?

Think..

When was the last time you sincerely tell someone close to you..

"I Love You"

When was the last time you really look into the eyes of that someone..

And when was the last time you feel the lines of age on that someone's face..

Have you ever thought of death?

Life has only ONE chance..

You have an option to choose unless accidents come in the way..

Don't let regrets take you away..

Live..

This is the only chance you have..

Make it right.. Live it right..

A story of love, of discovery, of revelation and of the transcending human spirit, "Departures" will linger in your heart and mind long after viewing..
http://www.departures-themovie.com/about.html

Entry 111: Shopping Targs.

I have two shopping targets now.

First..

And next..

I don't know how much does the former cost..
But the latter seems affordable to many of u right?
For a ring.. that's kinda ex though =X


oh well..
Wayne just gotta work her way through to these targs. =D

Entry 110: Game's Over.

I'm too lazy to explain how things returned to normal.

But I'm glad it has ^^

I'm back at his house..

And I'm Happy.

Thanks Mich GF..

Thanks Pearl Dearie..

Thanks Joey..

Thanks Sis..

Thanks Jory Bro..

Thanks anybody else who asked about me or heard me out
I'm fine now.. so are me and his mom =DD

It was really terrible and the chemicals acted too much.

I bet my tears could beat a 1.5 litres of water or more. xP

RISE AND SHINE !!!

Replies:

BOYFRIEND..

I did lock it. but she has my pwd..
Anyway, it's over.. hahas.

SO LONG NEVER SEE U LE LA!! SI QU NA LI LIAO!

Entry 109: The Actual Happening..

This is a raw scar with blood vessels..

Taken from Tracy Gf..

Solely dedicated to people who really want to know what has happened between his mom and I.

The day before yesterday, I saw my msn with the message "Now is you or your bf mum?"

Roughly so.

And that was because the previous day this friend of mine msn me again and ask why did I go MIA after saying Hi that morning..

But the fact is I was in school and I didn't switch on my lappie..

I don't think I did.

So I told him maybe Boney's mom was using the lappie instead?

And few days back, we met Jaryl, Boney's friend, at Taka and he told us that his mom talked to him using my account.

And he was unhappy about it.

So it was because of his displeasure that his mom is using my acct to talk to his friend without anyone of us knowing it until Jaryl told us..

So he told his mom in that tone which no one likes..

and his mom came in to take her stuff saying..

"oh, i won't use your laptop anymore hor. I never talk to your friends.. Only jaryl lo.. etc"

It is not the exact words coming out from her.. But rough idea..

I whispered to Boney cos the door was opened..

And he replied in relatively louder volume asking me to don't bother about her.

And I think she would probably hear it.

It's not ONCE that he said that.

He never thinks for me. Never.

And last night I went back home cos I was feeling vexed.

How am I going to face her when she ignored me that morning?

And Boney was deep in sleep and didn't pick up the phone?

While I was at home at about 9 plus I supposed..

Boney called me and I asked him if she did talk to him.

He said yes.

So now it is pretty obvious who she is angry with.

And do you know how much I felt unjust?!

He was the one who doesn't like it..

I don't mind cos MSN is harmless as long as she doesn't accept anything that contains virus.

But now, all because of his spite of anger..

All blame IS on me now..

And ONLY me.

Can you people understand how I feel?

Things isn't getting better after a night.

I greeted her again just now..

and she ignored me..

Self consoling: She didn't hear me.

Truth: I think I'm loud enough.

So what now?

I'll most probably be going back home to stay for a few days..

Not to wait for her to ask me back but hopefully things will be better this way.

I can't stand being in this house when the atmosphere feels so awkward.

I can't stay forever in just his room..

I need to bathe and stuff right?

argh.

He said he will talk to her again nicely..

But the way he said it makes it sounds like he is going to wait for time to fade her anger?!

Wth.

She talked to you but not me.

Like what sis also said..

I'm still an outsider and she is his mom.

Who would be angry with her own son?

I can say loudly that I'm not at fault.

He doesn't like it.

He heard it from his friend.

His tone.. his mom..

Who am I?

I thank people who asked if things are improving..

I hope it did.

Sis will be seeing me in the room again!!!

MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

I think she is pretty irritated by this. LOL!!

Someone to snatch the bed with her again.. xD

Anyway, sent my assignment to my classmate and she would hand it up for me (:

So, I'm not going to school!

Instead.. Mich Gf house ^^v

My days will be better..

I'll make them be (:

The Only Sweetest Thing In Life Is SM(:LE!!!

Entry 108: The Girls..

Anyone else can don't unerstand how much I need them..

But deep down, this another place has been somewhere I feel happy at.

We chat, we play, we joke and we "touch"

xD

If only life makes things easier for me..

Entry 107: Sometimes, what drags us down ...isn't feelings....

They created us and
They brought us into this amazing world.
One that is once so strange and unfamiliar...

Who are they to determine our lives?

Who are they to make most of our decisions for us?

Who are they to bring such great impacts to our hearts and souls?

Some things never change.. Not even after centuries..

They came from a whole different century compared to us.

They had the toughest times they thought.

And all our hardships are deem just tiny stones to them.

Do you think this is just?

They are a major influence and they affect us to a large extent. We were taught to respect authority and those elderly. We are unfillial if we rebut.

And so I am.

But who are they to judge respect?

If they can't model genuinely too, how are we gonna learn at our best?

Contradicting.

Have you ever wondered who are you marrying to?

His parents or him??

If love is present, what is it that holds the two back?

If you ever wondered deep enough..

He told me not to be bothered when situations he created befalls on me like I'm the guilty one.

His mom sarcastically mentioned that she wouldn't use my lappie anymore after some MSN thing.

I wasn't angry at all. But what agitated me was him.

He who doesn't understand the basic respect I ought to have when I said No.

I told him not to "confront" her but he refused and charged ahead with his ever pissing tone.

That's it.

He unknowingly pulled trouble onto me.. so what am I gonna do?

You woke up the next morning, greeted with ignorance and silence when you said "good morning auntie"

How would you feel?

You came out of the washroom and saw her making sandwich as usual.. Yet she took the sandwiches to her own daughter's room instead of leaving it on the table like the past few days.. and she didn't make your share like how she did lately..

How would you feel?

She is not obliged to do anything for me.. But for the least, does it have to be this way?

You made it so obvious that you're after me. And it was because of what he voiced out which largely was due to his displeasure more than mine. I was fine with it. seriously.

I cried this morning due to frustrations..and again when I can't reach him at all after school.

I know he was sleeping.. But how am I gonna go back just like this?

I have nuts idea if she is just after me alone or both of us.

I went back my own home. And this is somewhere I really could relax.

I don't have to care what mistakes I'll make cos I know people in this house underestand and will be forgiving. This is where people won't assume after I've clarified.

I really really hope things will be fine after today.

I'm really tired of trying..

When trying becomes a chore..

would you feel like giving up..?

I felt so.. If I don't mind about future..

I wouldn't be bothered to maintain any good relationships with his family members..

No matter how much I tried, he or they never really acknowledge..

I'm tired.. really..

Entry 106: Brief Backtrack..

Gotta carry out the first lesson plan tomorrow!!

Hopefully everything will be smooth-going for Me!! =DD

Sample:
Went to Bukit Timah Shopping Ctr after having our lunch..

Went to shop at this "cheena"-like shop which Fathiah mentioned..

Bought super cheap and nice packaged mascara there (:

And I really mean SUPER DUPER cheap ^.*

Ate at Al-Azhar opp Timah ctr.


Wanted to take a pic of all that we ordered but I forgot ..
and by the time I recall that I have yet to snap..
We have already finished them up xD



Saw this lady in the big big "long gang" while walking down the overhead bridge..
We were pretty curious what she was doing as she held a spoon in her hand =D


This morning.. Fathiah is upset.
Her com crash MOST likely due to her bro's refusal to keep his words.
He plucked in that likely to have contained virus files' thumbdrive into her lappie even though he promised not to.


Hardworking Fathiah worked so so so darn hard and got her assignments done.
And just one night..
Everything is gone.. =(



Just took it today ^^v

Yesterday.. on the way back home from Boney's godma's house..

Okok.. I'm going to sleep.

Goodnight. *muacks*

Replies:

Heh.. Thanks dearie!! =D

Entry 105: DOTA DOTA!

He is playing too much of this.

Or is it just me?

Work is occupying his time.

Sleep is occupying his time.

Journey to and fro is occupying his time

When he has the energy left, he games.

I don't mind his presence even though he is not mentally with me

But this dedication of time is lacking so much that I'm so sick of it.

I can't stand how much I can't have him both physically and mentally.

When is the time he will soley be here with me?

Sudden thought :

I wanna learn DOTA!

I'm not very apt in games.

I don't think I learn fast in this aspect.

But I will try

If he finds pleasure in it..

I believe he will like me joining him too..

Just like Luna Online (:

That said.

I'm gonna let him teach me someday ^^v

Entry 104: CRAVINGs

IWANTTOEAT!!....



Oyster Omelette
RAW Oyster
Sashimi
DURIAN
XIAO LONG BAO
Pizza
Chao Kuey Tiao
TORI Q's
McNuggets
Macaroons
Dessert Buffet
Laksa
Chicken Briyani (forgot how to spell xD )
Thai Food
MEE SOTO
MEE RUBUS
MEE SIAM


Anyone can treat me go mum mum? =X
I don't mind lunch boxes for me to bring to school!!! xD



Lols. rubbish.