Entry 129: Sometimes, it's too late..

When I look at her

My thoughts filled my mind

I couldn't help feeling things wouldn't be the same for the little one anymore

They might have been the victims

But who exactly sense the worst

None other than that helpless one

She has to figure out what went wrong along the way

She has to grow up with the sudden absence of her other important man in her life

How would she feel in the time to come?

It makes me wonder..

That day they decided to get together

That day they made it happened

Though everything wasn't thought out well

It has happened

And they accepted it

Then the worst came

All these while the cause of every separation possible

Nothing but accumulation of trivial matters

The feelings and emotions which surpressed

The sorrow and suffers which held back

If you ever wonder..

What happens the next day you realise things are changing.

What happens the day you lose someone significant.

What happens the day you will be neither back to the past nor step forward to future.

I might be feeling too much for they whom don't affect any part of my life

They live their own though we're more than normal friends

Yet who could judge what is the best for them

I know how it feels to be holding back and surpressing all those displeasure

I know how it slowly escalates to that point when you could no longer take it

Nothing more you could accept

Tolerance ruins them all

Be it a shadow for future
Nothing more than just memories you could recall from time to time
Who was the one to be blamed
Who was the one being victimised
Everything remains vague after some while

Perhaps, close your eyes and look deep inside your heart
Maybe, turn on a slow music and think thoroughly like you're searching for your soul

All these while, what are your living goals?
They don't have be something about success
Probably what you've learnt thus far from your life

What was the reason that people who stay or pass your life to be there
Are they with you for courage
Or are they there to destroy every happiness you've gained
Why not, look at them in the eyes and say
"Thank you for being part of my life and allowing me to step into yours"

Think in such a way
People who angered you along the way
Made you grow
And those who smiled with you
Made you move on through the stormy seas

Who was there to shoulder the unhappiness
When you feel the world falling
Anyone you could think of
You're the only final decision
You're solely in charge of your life

You make things happen in your own way
No other man could lead you to anywhere if you choose not to
Isn't life contradicting how we could choose when we somehow might regret?

Shadow.
It evokes that much emotions
The portrayal of loneliness and sadness
The indication of something that can't be erased simply
I wish.. I could be just a moment..
To hear what a shadow might want to speak to me
I really wish..

There might not be second chance or the third or the fourth and so on..
Therefore, while you still could..
Grab that first opportunity to cherish and love like the last you have
Cos you'll never know what the other party might feel after so long
Remember..

"Sometimes, it's too late to seek for forgiveness or beg for chances. Life is nowhere there to wait for you. You have ONLY once to make all decisions. Live it and embrace it."

Pick up the phone or text that someone who love you as much in a special way which no one else will experience from that special someone..

Tell this someone that you're thankful to have him/her

Future is just tomorrow..
If you plan to share what lies ahead
It just gotta be today.

Nothing is too early..
Remember (:

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Fathiah,

LOL! Paiseh la. I'm going by the sound.. hahas