Entry 224: Perfect Remedy

When things don't seem right

When surpressed feelings need to take a break

When doubtful mind begs for a fresh breather

The right people are just the best remedy for sickly piggy..

Cheeky god-daughter who knows how to call me! =D

Don't say she "looks" like shyting..

Cos she WAS indeed..

heading out..

GF kept bluffing her that she'll be buying yogurt for her ..

tsk tsk..

What an evil mother >.<

LOL

Some random pics at her house..

With AKActShy, JASMINE!

She came all the way to find me even though she had her day planned with wonderful sports with her friends..

Touched!!

playing and posing with Jas's 13bucks headphone

Piggy has been going to school as usual..

But Piggy now loathes reaching school..

She hates entering every next class..

She abhors break time..

She detests group work time..

She dislikes walking like an invisible glass

She'd rather stay in lecture hall just near her classmates to be camouflaged somehow like she IS existing there

She'd rather keep eating and avoid any conversations that she simply can't seem to be part of

She'd rather waste few minutes in the washroom before or during lesson to take a short break from the tension she feels

She'd rather ...be like a new classmate addition..and not one that has been for a year plus..

All that she'd rather be.. she couldn't be..

Every time she wanted to confide in her dearest Monkey, she can't help feeling the warning of a break down soon

She fought back hard on her tears and she was happy she kept them in control within a minute.

Yet that afternoon she had Monkey to call her and she cried so hard at the stairs telling Monkey how horrible she felt..

She thought she could live per norm even when something just ain't right in her life

But she couldn't..

And Monkey raised his voice over the phone with frustrations saying things that made sense to him but not to Piggy..

Piggy felt a lil lost still and she just gotta try'na do as per told

Afterall, she still has a bunch of great great girls even if the whole world is going to turn against her

So Piggy thought for a while in the washroom while looking at herself in the mirror

And yes, she decided to give herself a half day break and just let things flow the way it has to afterwards

She would feel better and she did feel better with 2 of her girls and god-daughter..

Mommy Piggy called and as much as Piggy wanted to tell her how she now hates school so much when she has never ever really abhor attending it, she held back and simply replied that she is studying hard in school

But honestly, Piggy can't concentrate.. she's worried too..

She kept thinking and pondering on what "F.R.I.E.N.D.S" are exactly.

Why is it scaring her greatly at its vulnerability?

And she thought how her girls and her are still "friends" despite the fact that they rarely connect with one another, seldom contact one another, and less often meet up already..

They don't really catch up and update too much on one another but what is it that keeps them going?

Yet for a moment she was frightened.

Cos they are the ones Piggy cherish the most among her other friends

She sent them a text telling them they are being missed..

And it was really extremely consoling to see those sweet and warm replies they sent back..

Perhaps, we're just not the way we said we were..

Things don't change overnight.. and I know there is a cause..

Maybe 'cos of that "catch-up"

Maybe otherwise

Whatever it is..

Piggy knows things are not going to turn for the better overnight too..

Things have changed..

And some things can never be back to the past..

Like self-inflicted wounds, they give you seconds of relieve

Yet like scars, they remind you the worst of memories