Entry 18: That guy

Few days back, I dreamt of this guy.

I know I have been keeping him hanging nowhere since CNY.

I'm sorry.

I admit you are a nice guy

You tried to give me all that you can to make me smile

You were there when I needed someone

But still.. Some things just never meant to last..

I can't stop the rising guilt

Every night I fear

I had enough and I guess I have to stop

I'm sorry to leave you hanging there without notice

Yes, you tried calling me..

I don't see a reason to explain further

Be it intentional or unintentional

It doesn't matter

That short short period together

I felt I was such a pampered and blessed girl

Yet materials doesn't weigh as much

This feeling of yours is growing too much

I can't breathe..

My heart only has a place for one

And yes, I chose him

Happiness is not like you said

I believe as long as him and I fight for it

No matter how many obstacles might come

No matter how many flaws

We'll find ways to solve it

Lastly, though we're not even friends now

I really hope one day when we meet again

You would still greet me with the warmest smile

And the friendliest "Hi" (: