Entry 338: First day of school again. And then the next.. What's more?

Met 奶妈, Yuki @ Clementi after first day of school.

 Ate and decided to bus down to lucky plaza after walking around and around looking for post office at clems yet to no avail xD

Excuse to go there too! xP

I'm actually trying to show u peeps my sunburn mark caused by my specs!

Went to Jas's mom's pre-birthday celebration at Marsiling CC!

Her mom. She is a great cook!

And a good singer plus all thanks to her, 奶妈 and I got free k session! xD

Her friend made durian cake for her and it was yummilicious! *drools*

It was a sinful night cos of the amount of intake.. haha..

And I've learnt not to underestimate an auntie's party. Though a lot of hokkie gua (song)

but most of them sang well with the intonation and stuff..

And OMFG the more than 2minutes BIRTHDAY SONG!

lols.. never sang that long.. that high..

haha damn cool I swear!

Second day of school started with a lil mischievious monkey!

School isn't that great and comfortable anymore.

Why don't I look forward to it like I had always been despite saying "oh gosh holiday is over"?

There was a group activity in class today and honestly, I felt really lost for a moment.

But I had to be that thickskin cos no one is gonna come up to me.

I know I'm not elaborating and explaining enough that is why many couldn't much comprehand and understand what I'm going through as I'm typing it down here.

Now, there is this project group issue.

And I have to go to school an hour earlier tomorrow to meet two of my classmates who wanna talk to me about the groupings cos it concerns me.

Honestly speaking, I am scared.

Oh ya, whatever. How old am I you might say..

But the truth is, I've never been through all these shit.

I've learnt how emotional I could be when it comes to trying and not getting even the least in return.

Don't tell me you give without expecting anything in return and that is call love.

Ya, it could be but in my scenario, it isn't this case of effort and no returns thingy.

BBya is not around to give me that warm comforting hug. Felt really terrible.

Yet how many could feel those anxiety, fear and unbalanced emotions behind that smile I wear on my face?

I'm tired. I thought I could just pull through since it is already the last year..

I have to be strong in school especially class cos the only one who could ever listen to my heartfelt words and deep feelings has left my personal life.

She is no longer the one I look for when troubles seem to grey my days..

I miss those days.

But I know it's long over.. and it just cant get back to the same anymore.

Pretty pessimistic? Nah.. Just being realistic.

Oh well.. I shall just trudge on and wait til the day I can no longer hold on myself.

Maybe by then.. I would have been worn out by all the cruelty of humanity.

But I know I would have learnt much much more than anyone else who never ever go through the same as I do.

I'm not the most blissful one

Neither am I the worst..

...

Anyways, just bought two packets of mask to keep my face from worsening..

It's quite nice.. hooked on to ears plus lifting purpose..

Doesn't feel sticky after unmasking..!

It's definitely worth (:

 

p.s. Friendships mean nothing if they aren't accepting and true.