Entry 357: Perhaps, you were never the one.

I might have overlooked..

Maybe, you were never the one

I relied on you for I have woes only you could hear

Yet sharing isn't easy when you don't even care to listen

I depended on you for support when my heart feels weak

Yet turning to you is a painful mistake I always make when you don't even bother

I thought for once you could really hear me out

I thought for once you could really ask

I thought for once you could really see the sadness in my eyes

I'm worn out, when I think of you and me.

I know comparisons lead me nowhere close to you

It pushes me away in fact

I know you never like issues I brought up

But I felt insecure as though I'm secondary in your life

Everyone wants the rightful empathy

Indeed, it comes only one way

It doesn't need two hands to clap

Cos it's always a victim and a passer-by

Somehow or rather

I'm tired

I'm bittered by the acute aches that build up over time

I'm defeated by your frown and words.

Those troubled nights we went through

They seem so tough for me

For your dreamland state stab me hard

Like it didn't bother you at all

So now I thought

The one I missed every single day

The one I thought of every single moment

Yes you, I'm leaving.

I'm leaving not physically

No, not that I don't love you

I'm leaving this junk I got myself in

I need, and I want to be

Stronger..

Stronger than ever.

Look, priorities might not have been set right for me.

And it's time I should list them well.

Gonna be a hard time maintaining this bitter sour change

But I know it might be a relief for you

Don't have to worry no more

I'm taking care of myself

Everything gotta change someday

And between you and me, it's now.

Boy, I wish you know all I ever wanted is not surprises or gifts

I just needed you who truly love and care.

Yet..