Entry 358: Family (almost) Outing to KRANJI on Vesak Day!

The boyish NING NING of Vesak Day!

I didn't take my camera down to the beach there cos it was drizzling and I suddenly reaslise, it's impossible for me to take any pictures with dirty muddy hands! So I left it in Gerald's car.

Rang up my Dad first to ask if he wanted to go dig clams with me, BBya and his friend, he said his bait was finishing soon and will be back home to call me ltr.

While I was bathing, I received 2 missed call from Dad and one frm Mom.
They were ready to set off!

Of course, the ever kanjiong Dad of mine reached there first with my Mom, and my Brother and his GF, Yuki.

Sadly, Sis went out and never join us! >.<

I doubt she wants to anyway hahaha

Oh well, we have lotsa fun ! Digging a almost pail-full / or rather 3/4 full of BIG HEAD! (dua tao) and a handful of LaLa~ hee..

Though the abundance is more expensive, I think many people are looking for the cheaper lala. It was the other way round when I came to "inspect and rackee" with Gerald while BBya was in NS.

BBya caught quite a bit Hermit Crabs back home and rear them in the fish tank xD The fishes are happily 'monching' on the algae hahahah.. so cute!

I know you cant spot the crabs xD

By the night, we went home to bathe and change to fresh and clean outfit.. Met up with Gerald, ChanMaliChan (Geoffrey) and CheeCheongFun (KokWeng)!

Went Timah's Al Azhaar for dinner! :D

Before setting off to Timah..

LOL.. CheeCheongFun looked surprised and GONG while .. I seriously don't know what the hell Gerald trying to do.. HAHA with his classic look >> -.-!! LMAO!

I had a great vesak day.. ^^ thanks to all that contributed! hee

And happiest of all, it's with my dearest Dad, Mom and Brother (:

Entry 357: Perhaps, you were never the one.

I might have overlooked..

Maybe, you were never the one

I relied on you for I have woes only you could hear

Yet sharing isn't easy when you don't even care to listen

I depended on you for support when my heart feels weak

Yet turning to you is a painful mistake I always make when you don't even bother

I thought for once you could really hear me out

I thought for once you could really ask

I thought for once you could really see the sadness in my eyes

I'm worn out, when I think of you and me.

I know comparisons lead me nowhere close to you

It pushes me away in fact

I know you never like issues I brought up

But I felt insecure as though I'm secondary in your life

Everyone wants the rightful empathy

Indeed, it comes only one way

It doesn't need two hands to clap

Cos it's always a victim and a passer-by

Somehow or rather

I'm tired

I'm bittered by the acute aches that build up over time

I'm defeated by your frown and words.

Those troubled nights we went through

They seem so tough for me

For your dreamland state stab me hard

Like it didn't bother you at all

So now I thought

The one I missed every single day

The one I thought of every single moment

Yes you, I'm leaving.

I'm leaving not physically

No, not that I don't love you

I'm leaving this junk I got myself in

I need, and I want to be

Stronger..

Stronger than ever.

Look, priorities might not have been set right for me.

And it's time I should list them well.

Gonna be a hard time maintaining this bitter sour change

But I know it might be a relief for you

Don't have to worry no more

I'm taking care of myself

Everything gotta change someday

And between you and me, it's now.

Boy, I wish you know all I ever wanted is not surprises or gifts

I just needed you who truly love and care.

Yet..

Entry 356: Some fears you have to face..

Bewilderment
To a ground you never thought you will get that close to
Mystified
By every sharp stab it returns for each single smile

You turned your head to where you heard the most soothing voice

You looked into his eyes and your heart seems to say you could

Then you closed your eyes to think for that few moments

You opened and revealed the most inner secrecy you held for so long

At that point of confession, you broke down

You thought you should be feeling less

Yet the escalation of emotions and fears hit you too hard, so hard..

Like an unforeseen car accident that bangs you right into your body

Shattered bones within

You were rushed to the hospital

Even resurrection was done on the journey there

Time, it seems to start ticking so loudly

Sounded as if rushing you to pack your things and go

You persuaded your heart to prepare for worst
Yet when the worst hits you
Dumbfounded still
You can't imagine

You turned to see who is the one grabbing your hands so tightly
You saw him uttering words
Yet you couldn't hear neither could you read his lips
You cried for you can no longer understand those whispers

Tears, streaming..
Questioned the one you believe to have protected you
He is so high above, you can't hear the answers
Unattainable

This is life.
The never-ending Q&A
No matter which lot you pray for, you just can't deny sometimes, they just give you a peace of mind
But the worst.. is still.. unexpected.

Entry 355: 2nd Kitchen Frenzy: Apple Strudel Muffin

Hi people! Back at AngChiang's Kitchen!

Went NTUC with BBya's sis, Isabell, and bought some ingredients that we're lacking.

Did the blueberry one too cos BBya bought it some time ago and it's going to expire mid next month..

so did it together with our ASM.

See the difference in ingredients needed between ASM and BM?

You bet the more is the better! xD

2 BIG cups ONLY?!

The pre-mix BM is so-so only I think. It smells nice but it just isn't tasty enough.

See how Isabell chops the apples!

The never-step-into-kitchen kinda person.. LOL

But not bad.. at least the apples are edible..

Need not be presentable .. HAHA

ALAMAK! FORGOT TO PRINT RECIPE!

Fret not.. IPHONE! Online recipe !!

Isn't it awesome?! heh :p

YUMIEE!

I CONCLUDE!

Muffin is indeed easier than cake!

=D

And baking is fun when you mix everything yourself..

Results are different too (:

ENJOY THE KITCHEN PEOPLE!

Oh.. and this is random.

Mango YanYan tastes nice!

 

Entry 354: When you've kept it long..

I was amazed at the period of time I simply shrug off those fears that I've been living til now for more than 3 years.

Don't ask me. You will never get the answer.

It's not about being emotional out of a sudden. I'm going for the outcome finally. Plucked the courage to confide in someone I love.

It doesn't help to reduce any tensions or pains, but at least..
I don't know if he will be blaming me, cos he merely brushed off with "wait til .."

Perhaps, if there really is anything within my worst expectations, he will still stand by my side.
But I know I'll never let myself off. Some things are predestined.

Yet, I always believe, that man up there is looking after me silently. He will hold my hands tight and give me a strong lift when I'm feeling uber down and helpless. I hope he will. He will.



Baby, I need you.
More than you know.

Entry 353: The lil randomness of thoughts that always surface..

I've always been wondering what's human beings in this practical world.

Or what's practical to human beings in this world?

I've never said I'm the prettiest being. Neither am I the focus in people's eyes for my appearance. Never will I be in the spotlight (unless there are really no preets ard? xD)

But one thing I've been confident. I'm average or slightly above. Given my body structure/mass, I can't be too satisfied neither am I contented. (this thinking is too common in girls, even those who are already bones)

But the fact that I'm in the acceptable weight range lead me to thinking that as long as I eat proportionately and maintain it, I'm fine. Isn't it true?

I don't really like exercising. Neither will I forsake food for a less meaty body (unless I'm already feeling too bloated). I mean, won't there be cravings? I have plenty. And though I don't always get to fulfill them, I try to get it :D And when I did, I'm happy. More than happy. Won't you feel the same?

Perhaps for my "over-age" look.. I don't get young kids looking at me. That is fine. Cos I'd be feeling so being watched kinda if they ever do so. And not like many other girls walking on the streets, I don't get picked up with those common, hilarious and outdated lines. And I won't be too proud to mention if they did.

Haven't you guys realised something? That looks will eventually start to give in to age? Is that the reason or cause for infidelity? I don't know, maybe there are statistics supporting this. lols

Ok, my mind is starting to blank as I type further..
Shall prepare for school.. good day peeps!

Replies:

Hopefully, his condition is much like yours..
As long as he recovers, I'll be happy and relieve..

Entry 352: A Beautiful Saturday [15 May '10]

Almost the WHOLE TIME..

BABY is attracting our attention to play fetch with him!

COMPLAIN TIME!

BBya's sis called me NING 姐 cos I was very naggy and fierce. LOL!
KNOW WHAT?!?!

She bought two packs of strawberries WITHOUT CHOOSING! And guess what? =.=
One of them is mouldy!

I should have taken that pic of the mouldy storberry >.<

What's more what's more!

SEE THE PIC! ->

Do you think it's a WASTE?!

Four sheets -.-"

AIYOYO~

And ah..

Only MY shirt was stained with bits of flour! :x

And the prob is.. she was the one who sift the flour!

I wonder how did my shirt got those flour on xD

TRY TRY THE CAKE!

FIRST BDAY CAKE!

Didn't turn out to be the strawberry shortcake we wanted to make cos the whipped cream isn't successful :x

Anyone teach me? hee.

Came back to BBya's house and went out for dinner before our movie, Robin Hood, 11.20pm.

If you can't understand literature or grasp what they say, then I bet you can't appreciate the show.

Overall, it's still quite a nice show.

Met up with Gerald and Steve at Rochor Rd.
Headed off to LCK, then to Taman to see people fish.
Back to LCK to meet Steve's friends and drove off to Kranji all together. They raced a lil while. Chatted and we headed home.

Before movies.. Met up a short short while with them~

BBya took this shot.. Ain't it making her look cute? =D

Mich GF

Pearl Dearie

Replies:

Anon,

Thanks for the consolation. But everyone has recovered after the 2wks. It's already the 3rd wk going 4th. How can I not be concerned?

Plus his physical structure, it is an add-on.
Though I know he wouldn't like me to say too much, the dent at the below chest area and his heart valve prob is making me worry more.
I know it has been there since young but you can't underestimate a cough.

If you ever do research, cough leads to other causes.
Not that I wanna be paranoid or over-reacting, I just want a piece of mind.
From the true diagnosis of a specialist that he was referred to.

And the water is not the cause.
It's just a matter of adapting to it. If it's the adaptation period, it would have been gone by now.

Entry 351: A lil overview..

BBya is still coughing after 3wks. I'm worried sick. Hopefully, he could book out tomorrow morning and get his appt done. A thorough respiratory check-up for the least to check for any underlying causes.

School has been getting better for me. 2 assignments down. One group presentation up this friday. Tomorrow will be another no-sch day :D

Had cake baking trial with BBya's sis last saturday morning at my own house and will dedicate a post specially on that Saturday tomorrow.

Had fishing at Taman Jurong too.

Basically, this is like an overview.
Stay tuned! =D

Entry 350: A lil change of sight.

Show me that "V" power sign!
Yes, I've finally done up another simple header. Just a pic and brief description. Changed the color scheme too..

You don't have to love it.. But I do like a change (:

Don't you think so too? You have been seeing the previous one for months!!

Hmm..don't you think I'm like NP ambass.? =D

I'm promoting my sch kinda eh? >.<

Anyways, BBya was told that he needs to do Remedial Training (RT). But the prob here is, he did go and observe during the 3days of out field..! So the OC say once it is clarified with the Lieutenant of his presence throughout the 3days, his RT will be cleared and he can book out later this evening.

I wonder what's cocking up. The Lieut is a nice guy as BBya mentioned. Maybe some miscomm.?

Oh, and I heard one of the sergeants, HC, is my sis's friend!
And coincidently, he is also BBya's friend de biker friend!
The world is indeed small..

I just ate yummy guilinggao :D
Rotting a lil more before preparing for 2-6pm school.

I JUST CHECKED MY SMS!
BBya text me around 9.11am (what a timing -.-) and updated me bout the RT thingy.
IT IS CLEARED! HE IS BOOKING OUT TONIGHT! Yoohoooooo~~~!!!

I'm still not used to days without him by my side. Back at his house especially, I'm feeling so empty.
His kiddo actions and nonsense are what keep my days alive.
I know it sounds exaggerated. But you just can't deny how I feel. I need to describe it in a way you peepos will see how much he has already become a part of my life.

I miss him.
Don't you? :p

Entry 349: When's a change?!

I needa edit my header and links soon! But when will that be? hmmm...

Entry 348: It's Love All Along..

BBya! Im missing you so much now!

You're IN, I'm OUT..

And whenever you asked me why do I miss you when you're just right beside me..

I never got to say this..

Perhaps those unbearable feelings to leave you creep up even before you book in..

Even when I have to go school and miss that few hours seeing you, my heart aches.

I might be relying too much but I love you too much to even say goodbye for a short separation.

Baby, you told me you wanna ROM after POP.. I wanted to be "certifically" yours but I want it to be a memorable one since it's gonna be once in a lifetime thingy!

We gotta save what we receive and earn to set up our own family.. ! What's more we're not even 21.

A lil shoutout to everyone out there..

Our love started sweetly like most couples, but it didn't continue for long..

We had many quarrels, over the tiniest bit of disagreements.. over unreasonable and senseless stuffs.

But he never gave up on me.. and I know, I never really did wanna kick him out of my life either.

Many times, I felt lost and confused. I felt neglected. I felt inferior as compared to his games. I strayed, I complained, I grumbled, and I nearly broke off with him.

For so many instances, we forgave each other for the blunders we made. We do treasure each other and that is the reason to why we are still together.

He took more than 2yrs to realise the importance of me in his life. More than he expected. He realised how much he neglected me, and his family, after enlisting. Yes, NS is indeed a good change for him.

He might be still gaming, he might be still weak physically, but no doubt, I love him.

He don't buy me expensive stuffs all the time but he do make sure I am well-fed, and everything that concerns my well-being.

He makes sure I have enough to spend. It might not be a few hundreds or tens, but it is definitely enough for me to keep my stomach filled.

We still have disagreements, but we're quarrelling lesser now.

Take these 2years 8months into considerations.. all that we've gone through and still experiencing..

Is it not easy to reach this stage we're at?

The first step, is to believe in love.

Believe that it can be eternal.

Don't be afraid to fall, just learn to get back up..

cos when you do, you'll realise, through all these fallbacks, you'll pick up bits of lessons here and there

You educate yourself about love and bring this joy to others.

You know love is a wonderful and beautiful thing.. In it contains all the bitter sweet tastes but each mouthful of experience is worth the try.

As you look at us, think how sweet love can be, and not how sweet both of us are.

It's love.. it's love all along..

Entry 347: Happy Mothers' Day! [photos]

This post might be late.. but the love shall stay .. ^^

BBya and I met up with my Mom, JieJie and her bf, Martin

@ Jurong Point

went to crystal jade for dinner!

We ate a total cost of 163$+

xD

Damn filling!!

Walked awhile and went to buy a cake for BBya's mom.

Bakerzin's strawberry cheesecake is nice (:

Peekaboo chin chin baby!