Entry 141: 4-year-old FiestyPrincess Fights Neuroblastoma..

Life's A Struggle..

For she who suffers even before she was borned.

Went into this link (http://ourfeistyprincess.com/) from XT’s blog.. Like the previous cancer mum, Shin, this time round, a girl of about four now is going through the toughest times in her life. Whether or not they will pull it through, YOU are definitely a help.


This is surely not an advertorial or paid comment to ask you for anything. There is a donation part though at their official blog. You will be able to link it from the above URL. However, just to post it here in case you are not aware that she exists. It is on the Newpaper and Lian He Wan Bao. She was reported in forums and media if you are doubtful.


A gist of it:
Charmaine, second and youngest child of her mother, Cynthia, has also a year older brother, Jase. Her dad bastardly walked out of Cynthia’s life with her good friend, mentioning about divorce so abruptly when Cyn was already in her 7th month pregnancy of Char. This was the hardest times that Cyn thought it would be but little did she know that her force of moving on and living happily is soon to be on thin line. Cyn noticed Char has a protruding right rib cage which is higher than her left. This shocked Cyn and that was the beginning of nightmare. Scans showed a 12cm tumor, classified her as a URGENT case of neuroblastoma (4th Stage). A child with no father, now experiencing the crucial point of her life – Is she gonna survive or is she gonna leave this world in no time.
No one could confirm the amount of half a million SGD could save Char totally cos her survival percentage is only 40-50%. Looking at the traumatizing amount and the slightest possibility of getting her back healthily, what would be the worse for a mom who has resigned to stay home 24hr by her sickly daughter? How do you then think she could raise that amount in time to save her daughter?



Follow through http://ourfeistyprincess.blogspot.com/ as she trudges on her life with future unknown..

Entry 140: pre-Happy Fathers' Day! (20th June '09)

It said HELLO to me..

It knows how to BURP

It knows how to WHISPER

It knows how to do the "Glok Glok" sound

While waiting at own home for Daddy to come home

Walked to 253 to meet daddy instead..
Together with Sis and Mum.
Dad drove us to farmart for dinner.



Gong Gong.

Quill and Chicken

Very spicy otah

Cockles
Scallop.

Mussels

Dont know what fish.. But ain't fresh..

Since Dad knew the owner's dad for so many years...

the person exchanged a stingray for us.

Sis suggested prawning and so we were here.

This cost $3.

Worms..

See my sis's bored face?

She was rather pissed when the prawn didn't get hook up.

And she kept "tsk tsk"

haiyoyo..

Dad was at the roughly same position as that other white shirt uncle on the right..

But when I decided to snap..

I realised Dad was out of that pose and there popped the green shirt boy..

How kiasu can one be??

Two rods man!!

LOL.

And his line entangled when he released it into the water..

Duh.

This photo has only been resized.

NOTHING ELSE IS EDITTED.

I accidentally shook my hand and this is the effect. Lols

Like edge blur..

Reached home at about 2am.

Went to sleep~~~

Entry 139: Glowing Girls.

Pretty babes attract million eyes

Sexy figure attract drooling mouths

So how close are they to your touch

You wonder..

You could almost spot them from that very dark corner

Cos they stand out as fantasies amongst others

When have you last tried to hook up on them

How many times did you manage to..

You could easily see them when night falls

At clubs they dance til you wanna loosen your trouse

Do you see them seductively attractive

Or do you think they are just flames too hot to be close

If given a choice

Would you want them to be

Your beau for life

Supposedly, guys are "lured" to pretty ladies

Maybe I should go for plastic surgery.

LMAO! as if -_-"

Entry 138: The First Ten

The clock ticked slowly

Til the first ten striked

They who agreed to the pact came together

But never did they know

They came too close

And as the dark night glows

The room left with silence

They felt the perspiration

They felt the momentum

But when was the last

They had it out so calmly

From the two individuals

To no more than one

Perhaps..

Things just ain't how we feel

To let loose is to see even clearer with your heart.

You've brought me closer

To hell and heaven..

Entry 137: A Pact of Time..

Everytime the clock strikes ten

They whom don't cross each other shall meet

With an ease of mind

With an undivided attention

Til then she can't handle it anymore

They shall cease to be

Forever they can't see

Eternal they can't reach

That moment that pact was signed

She knew..

Love is not gonna be love anymore.

I've given you too much..

But I'm takin backn my love..

Entry 136: Weekday Fishing Trip..

Supposedly, fishes ain't having their off day or holiday.

Maybe that is why we didn't have big catch that day. =(

I was mumbling stories, songs, blah blah blah with myself.

Boney's mom was like asking what was I "chanting"

Lols.

in midst of the hopeless situation ..

I CAUGHT A SOTONG!
[shoe size =7]

I think it was attracted to my story of "The big fish and the fisherman".

LMAO.

Boney's mom: Sotong catch sotong. No wonder la.

*laughs*

Anyway, Boney hooked up a coral..

We dared not touch it cos we're afraid that it is poisonous..

Or rather I was the one being so scared that I kept asking Boney NOT TO TOUCH IT HOR!

Of course, there is always a reason to be less curious..

With the REINFORCEMENT of his dad..

"You all better don't touch the coral! You never know if it is poisonous or not ok."

=D

Only small catches so didn't snap any photos..

Oh well, I looked at the watch and told Boney that it was already 6pm.

Fishes should have knock off..

Just then, Uncle Darren's rod kena something big!

Might be big fish/stingray!

Though it was a pity that he didn't manage to wind up due to the breakage of his line..

=(

But from the way the catch pull, you know it ain't small!..
Headed back shore for dinner at Changi and home sweet home ^^v

Oh.. by the way..

Just a "trailer"

Went Sentosa in the morning yesterday and headed to my sec sch class's bbq~!

Had real fun and I'm glad to be with everyone!!

Will upload photos taken yesterday asap ..

Needa get from other camera holders too (:

Have a nice day ahead people!

Replies:

"If we can afford it, it's another ball game."

Quite true (:

Entry 135: Brands. More than that ..

I thought of how materialistic women are.

Or even some men too.

Specifically targetting at my gender.

How many girls or those who bother to look better socially and physically

had branded stuff jotted down in their wish list.

Do they honestly want sheer happiness if they stated that as one of the wishes?

Or maybe materials and a "good" boyfriend who could provide them these are all they really want?

I don't deny the fact that certain designer goods are pretty.

But to some extent, we don't live by them.

I have a "$10 bugis spokesperson" classmate.

She could wear the fashion out of cheap stuff, bring the beauty to the clothes she bought.

Why not you people?

Branded goods can be as "cheap-looking"

If you get what I mean.

Some shirts might even look like those 3 for $10 yet costing a price of over $50.

Just because of the name it's printed.

We've been blinded by the trend that branded means beauty, social acceptance, and status difference.

Too shallow, we are.

No other comments.

Think about yourself ..

Are you one of those who lead such a shallow and ugly life?

(:

No offence ^^v

Entry 134: ...It is

从来没想过 不能再和你牵手

委屈时候没有你 陪着我心痛

一切都是我 太过骄纵 以为你会懂

一直忘了说 我有多感动

Quite true isn't it?

Entry 133: Changi.

As usual..

Changi will be a place Boney and his parents visit either a day or few days before they are going for a fishing trip.

The same fishing tackle shop and people..

Don't always get to see HC building rod blanks k~!

But he is good at it (:

Boney's Zziplex ZTI was built by him too. ^^

On the way back to the car..
This cat is certainly a playful one!
It is so far the not-so-fat cat that I see in Changi Village. Hahas



Ok, Wayne is bored bored and bored~~~
She thought of asking Mich gf to Lot One cos she is lazy to travel too far
But guess it wouldn't be too convenient for GF if she has to come here alone with Lovelle and pram.
She is so skinny now! I'm STRONGER! lala.
Retarded.


Thought of asking my beloved cousin, Yoshiko J., if she would be at Grandma's house
But I'm too hesitant cos Boney is not working today and I'll probably be more bored there.
xD


I'm rotting.. and soon decomposing..
Decaying comes before decomposing or after?
Hmm..
Or are they the same?


Rubbish.
I needa watch Finding Nemo for my Academic Writing (AW) Term Paper
What should I do.
I'm not in the mood of doing assignments though feel like doing it.
Contradicting.
I've watched it so long ago thus I can't really remember the script.
But I've seen the qns, and I do know roughly what are the two blueprints I wanna write.
Left one blueprint, perhaps gotta consult my lecturer.


Anyway, I still can't set my mind on doing something which will interest me and keep me occupied for few hours.


Net is boring.
Nothing much to surf.
Argh.
BORING~!

Entry 132: Looking forward to..

I'm pretty looking forward to this coming Wed, which is the 17th June.

Day before will be having a fishing trip too.

Anyway, was asked by my fellow sec schmate, Alvin, whether I could make it for the BBQ.

Effy will be tagging along too! Woohoo~~

It's been so so so long man BOYFRIEND!

Finally eh!

I admit my appearance in sec sch gathering is rare..

But most prob I'll be going for this..

WIll be heading Sentosa with Fathiah and ShunZhen in the morning til evening

depending whether SZ have cca or not.

Effy yet to confirm with me if she is going with us to Sentosa!

She prolly would hide and squeeze herself in the shade la. LOL

And I'll most likely apply layers and layers of sunblock xD

SZ would love the sun to the max man..!=DD

FM's grp project is on ETP..

I'm so gonna get those rides and scream even if I'm not really scared.

I wanna compete screams in viking too!

Woohoo~! and I wanna accelerate to the max as usual in that short go-kart.

lalala..

Holiday is gonna be fun !

Assignments gotta be reminded though..

But it's ok! Everything's gonna be ok!

Stay tuned for photos!!! =D

Entry 131: Just so.. Taste of Baby Joy !

No No..

Wayne is NOT pregnant. LOL.

skipped MAYC tutorial and FM class.

Syg too.

=)

It has been a lazy week indeed..

Headed back my home and went to mum's workplace to find her.

Went back home together and shortly after she has cooled down and bathed, we went to Giant at Sunshine place!

On the way there..

Mum saw this old man who was sitting under the void deck with his grand daughter in his arms..

Mum greeted him from far and she told me he patronises her stall often..

What drew my attention was that cute petite lil 1yr plus girl.

She smiled and she tilted her head to her grandpa's shoulder when we smiled at her.

I bent forward and asked if she would want me to carry..

She reached out her hands to mine.

=D

I didn't carry her.

Was really bad that I kinda faked her but well..

LOL.

Was about to leave and Mum stretched out her hands to see if she would want to follow.

The obvious "Don't Want" face was shown and she was a lil drawn back.

Then Mum asked me to try.

And SHE WANTED ME!!!!

LMAO!

Such a cute lil girl..

I wanted to have one of my own!

Oh.. by the way, I've taken the pic of the twins in my centre..

Couldn't post it due to permission thingy.

I don't mind having cute twins like them! xP

Ok. not as if I could produce babies like those in SIMS..

I can't possibly choose the face and hair and body structure I want right?

LMAO. Even SIMS have limited selections..

=X

Well, til I have my own child..

I'll make sure I'm able to afford all his/her expenses.

I don't wanna be worrying about monetary stuff .

It is the best I wanna give.

Best of my might (:

Okok.. shall stop here.

BYEBYE!

Entry 130: FB QUIZ: What Are You Hiding From People

You tend to laugh and joke around when you are with everyone, but you feel lonely and empty when are all alone. you cry alone when you have stress and problems. you often have many problems that are bugging you, but you never show them out on your face. you are not as cheerful as they thought, but you just don't wish to spoil the mood of everyone, hence you hide your emotions inside. you are just a weak human with feelings after all

I thought it was really true..
To me at least.. If you didn't figure it out (:

Entry 129: Sometimes, it's too late..

When I look at her

My thoughts filled my mind

I couldn't help feeling things wouldn't be the same for the little one anymore

They might have been the victims

But who exactly sense the worst

None other than that helpless one

She has to figure out what went wrong along the way

She has to grow up with the sudden absence of her other important man in her life

How would she feel in the time to come?

It makes me wonder..

That day they decided to get together

That day they made it happened

Though everything wasn't thought out well

It has happened

And they accepted it

Then the worst came

All these while the cause of every separation possible

Nothing but accumulation of trivial matters

The feelings and emotions which surpressed

The sorrow and suffers which held back

If you ever wonder..

What happens the next day you realise things are changing.

What happens the day you lose someone significant.

What happens the day you will be neither back to the past nor step forward to future.

I might be feeling too much for they whom don't affect any part of my life

They live their own though we're more than normal friends

Yet who could judge what is the best for them

I know how it feels to be holding back and surpressing all those displeasure

I know how it slowly escalates to that point when you could no longer take it

Nothing more you could accept

Tolerance ruins them all

Be it a shadow for future
Nothing more than just memories you could recall from time to time
Who was the one to be blamed
Who was the one being victimised
Everything remains vague after some while

Perhaps, close your eyes and look deep inside your heart
Maybe, turn on a slow music and think thoroughly like you're searching for your soul

All these while, what are your living goals?
They don't have be something about success
Probably what you've learnt thus far from your life

What was the reason that people who stay or pass your life to be there
Are they with you for courage
Or are they there to destroy every happiness you've gained
Why not, look at them in the eyes and say
"Thank you for being part of my life and allowing me to step into yours"

Think in such a way
People who angered you along the way
Made you grow
And those who smiled with you
Made you move on through the stormy seas

Who was there to shoulder the unhappiness
When you feel the world falling
Anyone you could think of
You're the only final decision
You're solely in charge of your life

You make things happen in your own way
No other man could lead you to anywhere if you choose not to
Isn't life contradicting how we could choose when we somehow might regret?

Shadow.
It evokes that much emotions
The portrayal of loneliness and sadness
The indication of something that can't be erased simply
I wish.. I could be just a moment..
To hear what a shadow might want to speak to me
I really wish..

There might not be second chance or the third or the fourth and so on..
Therefore, while you still could..
Grab that first opportunity to cherish and love like the last you have
Cos you'll never know what the other party might feel after so long
Remember..

"Sometimes, it's too late to seek for forgiveness or beg for chances. Life is nowhere there to wait for you. You have ONLY once to make all decisions. Live it and embrace it."

Pick up the phone or text that someone who love you as much in a special way which no one else will experience from that special someone..

Tell this someone that you're thankful to have him/her

Future is just tomorrow..
If you plan to share what lies ahead
It just gotta be today.

Nothing is too early..
Remember (:

Replies:

Fathiah,

LOL! Paiseh la. I'm going by the sound.. hahas

Entry 128: Heels, Can I?

I wanted to..

But my right foot has been sending some signs of disapproval..

It has ached for few days..

The top part of your foot..

if you get what I mean (:

But, heels might be what I want..

Do I really need to wear?

Asian guys are short. (not that impt cos Boney is definitely higher than avr. =D )

Not all my friends are tall.

And heels for me will age my look >.<

LOL.

Not only so, saya tak ada moola already !

D=

Entry 127: For Him Whom I Cherish Most..

Watching as the day starts to say goodbye
Hearing it whispering, “We’re gonna meet again tomorrow”
Observing as night arrives
Everything seems to be but a shadow

Then the stars came along
And they told me, “You’re blessed without us”
I turned and looked at you
Truly, it was clear

With every passing day
I never feel alone in the scary darkness
Cos you were here with me
You are my light regardless of day or night

Rainbows might be attractive
Sunsets might be beautiful
Starry nights might be alluring
But only you could let my focus stay

Baby, you gotta know..
No one but you
In my heart will live forever
I need you as much as I love you.

Entry 126: Lazy Tuesday

Meritus Mandarin does have nice smelling body lotion =D

Went off when the lecture was about to begin.

Meaning, we left to the library after handing in our assignments in the lecture hall.

Syg asked if I would wanna jabo and I agreed.

Then she turned to Farah and WITHOUT informing me, she straight away..

took her bag and quickly went out with Farah and Eliz.

I'm like.. 0.0?!

Never tell me! Wait for me !!!!

File and pen with bag hugged clumsily near my tummy..

Gosh.

This was where we watched..

The Virgin Suicide!

Went for the second and last lecture for the day

DLE.

Examinable subject so there we were sitting and copying notes in the lecture hall but also..

chatting away~~ xD

While marking attendance, Eliza, the module lecturer, realised that many of the absentees were from our class!!!!! The clique wasn't present and so only syg and I (:

Talked about Blanket and felt a lil bored after knowing that he's attached.

I mean.. not that I wanna flirt with him..

But Ruth kinda influenced syg and I into paying more attention to him.

Just curious maybe. LOL.

Anyway, home sweet home.

Ate my lunch that Boney's mum bought..

Full and happy.

Missing Boney loads though T_T

hahas.