Entry 375: Saturday @ Town

hi peeps!

I know I'm not updating my blog that often which explains why my viewers are getting lesser >.<

But don't stop dropping by to hear about my life!

=D

I shan't elaborate on my day..

Pictures are all you need to see (:

Bidding my long and over-waist hair soon..

Gotta trim the ends prolly by this week (:

I'm going to miss the length though x(

Octopus versus Parrot? :x

'Lending' my hair to 奶妈

Trying to dance Ah GO GO!

Bought two shades for a total of 6bucks.

Will be giving this brown one to my mom since hers is missing -.-"

I know it looks kinda alike, but it's not in real.

This is the black one.

Thanks, I love looking like I'm not my age.

and yes, I'm 19 though I look like 20s :p

Isn't this GORGEOUS?!!

So slim.. reminds me of some super slim handphones. xD

That's all folks!
Love!

Entry 374: It is that disappointing without you.

Sometimes, that flash is too bright and it forces you to blink

But remember, the moments never blink. They are there. And forever will.

有时，我觉得我们就像是个分不开的连体婴

怎么也离不开对方

也许就因为离不开所以开始渐渐要求多了

希望每次心里想的都是对方也同意的

可是好多好多的失望

让两人都觉得有些疲惫了

终于尝试了挣开彼此的依赖

尝试去实现心里想做的

虽然达不到一百分的完美

单希望他是快乐的

Just a plan, yet again, changed.

I can't deny how disappointed I was

Perhaps, I really have been giving too much

giving in to his request when I have my own desires

I thought I could be selfish to keep things according to what was promised.

But the disagreements soon lead to that I don't wish to.

I went out without him

Headed to town to meet Yuki奶妈

Walked aimlessly.

Mind wandering off though I was smiling and chatting.

Kept thinking how nice it would be if he was there with me.

That was what I really wanted, isn't it?

But he wasn't

He don't think the same.

Met up late night to watch Despicable Me with him, and two other friends.

Though he did bring me to movie, that wasn't what I wanted.

Is it.. that I shouldn't ask for too much?

Even when this much doesn't seem demanding at all to me

They are only occasionally, am I asking for more than I should?

I really wonder..

Entry 373: And weekdays are now a routine.

Havent you seen the days when I could freely do whatever I want in whatever time I like?

UNPAID attachment started some weeks ago and days are like the duplicate of yesterdays. I ain't grumbling cos the kids are simply adorable and hilarious :x

I won't burn the whole of my Saturday doing assignment that is due this coming Monday, but I hope to get it 3/4 done before I leave house today! Doubt Sunday can spare me time to procrastinate, then.

Had a lil 'tiff' with BBya last night. And all I could say is..
Money issue is the killer topic, so if your views differ from me, shut up and leave. People go through different things to shape their thoughts and beliefs, so do I.

This isn't the first time I had disagreements and unhappiness with people because of financial issues. If you can't accept how I feel, then don't bother asking cos you'll never understand if you have your own firm stand too.

It's annoying, yes, cos I look at price tags before I decide whether I really want to get that item or not. Even if it means to give up the thought of having it when I really wished to have it.
It's annoying, yes, cos I look into my wallet to check if I have money to spare for additional stuffs other than the essential needs - food.

I can give up on anything I desire for the sake of having a filled stomach. Or I can do it the opposite.
No, you won't understand.
I found someone who lives almost the same kind of life as me with regards to money.
OR should I say she is what I used to be?
Having 100bucks a month and no allowance at all during holidays.

I am down to 50bucks or not even a blue note. Tried not to ask from my mom unless there really is a need to. Dad had some medical issue with his knees. He isn't seeking western treatment cos it is costly and it might take quite some time before he finally gets to see the specialist. He can't wait at Polyclinics either.

However, not all chinese medical clinics are qualified and certified as traditional chinese medical clinics. If they are, they would be able to issue medical certificates upon request. Dad takes any medications too and that is worrying cos he is not eating something that is prescribed by a professional.

Just hope he will be fine soon, right?

I shall finish the 1/4 as I set out for today to complete for my assignment!

Take great great care lovelies!

Entry 372: If you haven't love til the end, if you haven't love til all you could give..

Then, you are not in the position to say..
"I'll let you go, I'll set you free to search for someone better"

Wanted to comment after reading MichGF's latest entry, but decided to blog here instead cos I want every readers who pass by mine to see..

Ever watch the korean drama “原来是美男”? This show taught me.. that loving someone so much, is not being noble to set him/her free, unless you haven given your all and every effort you put in is not working for the both of you. Have you already fight til the end to keep that someone you love so much by your side?

When you know the two of you are still in love with each other, but some circumstances seem to grey your vision of a blissful future, then think.. Have the both of you tried to salvage? Tried to solve? Compromise to me, is a win-win yet win-lose situation. Do you see that controversy?

OF course, if obviously the other party no longer loves you, and you have confirmed that fact from her/him, then leave but give your most sincere blessings. You know you will be appreciated.

Don't come blaming me telling me you fought so hard to keep that loved one by your side til the extent you used unscrupulous methods. I never agree on that.

Just remember, everytime you feel liek giving up (as much as I do at times), recall how much have you done to make things work for the two of you who are still loving each other?

Trying won't make you lose anything when you're at your pit bottom..
But trying and succeed wins the most you can ever receive.

Entry 371: The number of steps and stairs

TGIF's Lunch..

Herleen bought some really pretty, big and sweet strawberries!

yum yum..

Plus my Little Miss Strawberry xD

HER COOKIES ARE YUMMILIOUS TOO!

Every morning..

Every morning plus frequently after lunch..

p.s: Sometimes, we can't get what we wanted.. But it doesn't mean we don't have anything we wanted (:

Entry 370: Some absence and silence doesnt mean dead!

Hello hello!

Yes, like I've mentioned, attachment has started and I wouldn't have time to keep blogging. I'll still update whenever I am free and NOT tired xD

Went Kyoto Haven and GREAT CATCH!
Gerald alone caught 9 eh!
BBya caught one 4kg GT, but gotta release :(
That's the rule. ANyway, GT meat isnt nice so no point taking back too.

I'll dedicate one entry on that with photos.. so stay tuned!

Relationship wise...
As usual?
It's been 2 years 9 months.. Few days more to 2 and 10..

There will sure be changes but I have to adapt to it with time. Else, how do I survive? How do we survive? How does love gonna survive??

Back into the centre, heard how the kids talk for the whole 8plus hours.. Back home, I'm so influenced and started talking like the kids -.-"

haha.. I sounded cute! :p
Probably cos whenever I say something, I think of the kids' expression..SO ADORABLE!!!

ok, I should complete my task 1 of this 4th wk.. shall not accumulate since I'm going to implement lessons soon!! Yet to finish all the materials and deco for my 2 learning centres too :/


Goodnight world!

Entry 369: The pat on my head to calm my guilt...

For my dumbness and ignorance

For my shock and guilt

For my tears and sadness

You gave a lil pat to calm it all

Assured me "it's ok"

When deep down I sense it not

On the journey home

You came up with all the possible excuse

And all do not mention a tinge bout me

\

Baby, thank you

You ease my mind

You shouldered the blame when it could have been otherwise

You made my fullstop a pleasant one

I can't be any grateful and thankful

With you, I can be safe

With you, I know I'm protected and defended.

You are the one to guard the door of my heart

Only you, could.

Entry 368: 眼睛不会说谎

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那年的那天

你看着我 眼里只有我

告诉我把永远交给你 我点了点

毫不犹豫 接下来只要证明

时间会让世界多丑陋 我不知晓

只相信爱情是真实存在着

 因为眼睛不会说谎

后来的后来

我才发现 爱情会很累

眼里少了光芒疲惫了 你我认了

太多事情 让我们喘不过气

以为能甜蜜好久好久 却没想到

现在发现爱情不只你和我

原来眼睛没有说谎

谢谢你曾让我们天天幸福快乐


让生命完整了些 虽然还不够


那天的接受 你我都没后悔过


我们庆幸 我们是事世上还相爱的


虽让始终逃不过时间的折磨


却还不想放弃 坚决继续爱到底


伤痕累累 疲惫不堪


痛得累了还是一种拥有 因为有你


加快脚步 勇往直前


只要看着眼里的那个我那个你


我知道眼睛说了 相信我 不会说谎


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Wrote this on a spur of inspiration.
Won't be dedicating this to him, cos I'm sure he doesn't know how to read many characters
Neither does he know what's the meaning of the lyrics.
LOL.

Still, it's a bit based on our own story.
Hope you enjoyed it too (:

Entry 366: A big wkend turn-off yet a lovely home sweet home..

Entry 365: ..and it could be a liability

Oh please.
I was browsing through HOTSTUFF's models..

Ok, I do agree some are really off standard, not very kind to pinpoint anyway.

But those with the looks, yeah, you bet you'll see negative comments.

People find flaws everywhere! If they have a pretty face, they comment about the boobs.

Otherwise, they doubted she might be a trannie -.-"

Nose job, boob job, plastic surgery.. Oh whatever.
I was once skeptical about surgeries.. But if you are capable of getting one to 'refine and enhance' your look (certified places to get it done) then by all means!

At the end the day, the one who really loves you truly is the one who appreciates your inner beauty.
The YOU, in you.

And this beaut I'm talking isn't refering to how kind and gentle you are deep down. You could be passionate about certain things which draws that guy's (vice versa) attention. It could be your strong personality or stubborn nature :x

This is what makes Love weird, isnt it?

Ok, just some random stuff to share.
Shall go have a nice shower and head to my house!



Remember to tell the people around you,
I Love You..