Entry 364: Holidays Isn't Holidays.

Words don't always show you the complete picture..

Yet pictures don't always tell you the entire story..

My Mom's CAO GU TOU!

She cut away her pretty AH LIAN hair! OMG.. Now look like what?!

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The constipation face! haha

And end off with a 'pretty' me :p

MUAHAHAHAHAHA

p.s: Even when hopes are low, you gave me that strength to carry on.. with just a simple retarded smile :)

Entry 363: When Life Is Pictorized..

@ Mambo with BBya, Gerald & Christin-AH (inside joke), Steve, and C.C. FUN!

If you're observant enough.. Something is different in me!

Spot the diff eh! ;)

 C.C. FUN!

As stinky as always! :x

 Christin-AH~! hahaha

 Gerald the Eye Model for CCCChiang~!

Long sexaye eyelashes~ Muahahahahha

 @ Kyoto Haven Fishing Pond with BBya, his Mom, Gerald & Chris

 If only it was taken during broad daylight.. The place is beautiful (:

 Plentiful of these...

 Love ya Earthlings!

Saved some photos for the next few posts in case I don't have any pictures to update with xD
Will upload them all at once in FB though! :D


Take care!


p.s: Flu is making me so sick :(

Entry 362: This Solitary Moment Makes Me Wanna Come Back Home..

Attachment started on Monday. It was alright, jokes at times, yet tiring.
Tasks required to do are making me snooze..

Trying to max the time I have with him on Tues and Wed til I exhaust my body. Not that we went out til midnights but I'm tired after a whole day.

Been feeling like a lost sheep whenever conflicts arise.. Major communication breakdown in my view. I can't talk peacefully cos I'll just link everything together. So much after they accumulate. (PieceOfAdvice: Never ever wait til it explode. Voice it out before it gets worse.)

I should have accepted the fact that outdoor companion with Friends overrides Girlfriend.
In his case.

He might not feel so cos he is not the one experiencing the inferiority and negligence.
No matter how many times I try sounding it to him, he just don't get it.
I don't wanna explain myself further.

The only thing I'll defend, he does love and care for me.

We all know that we should be contented. But contented with just these two is not going to work. "Bread vs. love" dilemma? And of course, the "Intention vs. Action" issue.

Havent you heard enough of "I intend to...", "I wanted to...", "I planned to..."
Yet they just don't do anything..do they? The 'BUT' word that follows every such sentence is so disappointing and frustrating. It simply piss you off.

Ok, I shall not elaborate further.

I'm currently waiting for my Mom to come home and we will be heading to the optics together cos I broke the 'nose bridge' thingy of the specs? xD

Yes, very chor lor. haha

Shall end off here..
Updates probably during weekends now since I'm pretty occupied with school requirements and attachments :(

Take care peeps (:

Replies:

Anon,
There are a few factors to consider when you think further about a relationship.

(works both ways for majority)
- Is the guy able to attend to my emotional needs?
Is he able to communicate with me? (Being tgt doesnt mean no comm. breakdowns but whether is it frequent or not)
- Is he ready to settle down from all the "plays"
- Is he ready to start a family too?
Is he ready to assume greater responsibility (breadwinner/father)
- Is he financially capable? (stability wise, I think 1 bomb everything's gone)
- Is finding a job or switching jobs easy for him (shit happens)
- Does he know how to calculate? (Not stingy ut savings is a MUST once u start having an income)

The above question roughly sound out what's concerning me..
Kinda inter-related and links..

Entry 361: Biological outstands anyone else including that you shout Love..

And it just tears me apart..

爱

难道真的只有感觉痛

才知道它确确实实的存在着？

Entry 360: ..because Love makes everything more demanding

I've always wanted to make you feel good in front of your friends and as a boyfriend.

There are times when you cared so much about pride and dignity that you forgot about mine.

Respect, if that is what you want.

You gotta make sure it goes two-ways.

It's always been going through my mind about how well we're doing in a relationship.

Even when times are at their goddamn sweetest moments..

I never fail to think and ponder in that stolen few seconds or a minute

Are you the one?

Many factors just diminish this thought of being the rightful one

But at the same time, how do I get the perfect guy when there isn't one?

Perfect in the eyes of audiences and judges

OR

Perfect in the eyes of all-rounded criteria?

The former is bias.

The latter doesn't exist.

If you think you found someone that fits the latter, tell me, show me

Give me a period of time and I'll prove to you

I'm not picking lil bits of crumbs from those pringles or biscuits container

But, they just got their flaws.

I'm back to gaming with him and though he couldn't very much hold his temper when I did something out of what he expects

I'm still playing along.

I'm doing something you like with you..

And I hope efforts will be made to appreciate what I'm doing.

I'm not apt at it even after a few RPGs with you

I'm not born a potential gamer and I can't be cos my reactions are simply "retarded"

Accept my lag time, TQVM

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a lil linking..

My brother is going to marry his just got together for a month or so girlfriend.

I'm not against it strongly but neither am I very approving of it.

I do agree relationship need not be long to tie the knot

But there are just some practical and realistic stuffs to look out for in a marriage.

Even when I kept asking him when will he ever propose to me

I know if that day ever comes this close..

I'll hesitate.

• Financial wise
• Ability wise
• Capability wise
• Family wise
  (extended or internal)
• Relationship wise

Are we / you really ready for them?

I always wanted to get married and have a child by 25.

I wish, I could make babies now.

Yea, stupid for a 19yr old girl who needs to be realistic.

It's not impossible, but it's going to be very very tough.

Consider the possible changes in relationship if not handled well..?

I can't afford any loses.

 And that is why,

there is a reason or reason(s) why he is just my boyfriend.

Just some random thoughts that will constantly flow in my mind..

Marriage is more than being together with a cert

But how you going to maintain after the change of status.

 

 

 

Entry 359: Ru Mei's 24th ! [29th-30th May '10]

Happy 24th Birthday to ISABELL HO YI RUUUUUUU~~~!!!!

Baking @ my house from 11+am til 4+pm

Waited for my Mom to cook the big heads and beehoon~

DOGs' GATHER!

This is my "food model" for the day! LOL.

Photos in FB.

My hair is long :x

heh random.

Singing the SONG

 

Some of the groups..

SGalaxy..

 Ru Mei's BF's polymates.

 The midnight kakis..

 Pooled after celebration around.. I don't remember what time.

1plus?

Ended around 3plus 4 i think..

Were chatting with BBya, Gerald, and CheeCheongFun..

Decided to go dig clams again!

And yes, NO SLEEP!

ALL THE WAY BABY!

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Camera in DOUBLE ziplock bag..

Effect with flash..

 Without looks saturated!

 I should have turned off the flash..

Probably due to the sunlight..

It doesn't make any difference to the foggy effect >.<

Gerald asked Christina along (:

 Somehow, BBya looks like a crab here..

 Saw the brownish clam ??

Somewhere at the mid foreground.

Pull it out and feel the suction woots!

 Tide up around 10am. and we went over to the other side cos BBya and Gerald wanna fish..

Midnight Kakis came over to BBya's hse for dinner ^^

Rest of the photos are uploaded in my facebook cos it will be a hassle and chore for me to upload all 133 photos HERE in blogger.

(: